hooked

im hooked on the crazy song we heard during the Mamma Mia movie:
"Dont... go... wasting your emotions, lay all your love on me..."

i realised i have a VERY bad habit! when im hooked on a song, i go source out all the different versions and arrangements of the song and then do this mini evaluation of all to see which is the "best" and sometimes i find myself cringing at the tacky chord progressions etc. trust me, it is rather addictive but time consuming.

anyway, anthea no worries, the version of the song on your iPOD is DA BEST!! :))

i also happen to really agree with my mum that the songs of the past were actually so much more meaningful than today's music. i mean really, after following "dont forget the lyrics" rather religiously (hahaha), i think the lyrics were not as repetitive as today's pop music and more often that not, each verse at least had some different flavour. i think that credit can only go to a few today. i mean, look at Jason Mraz, he does wordplay and then everyone goes gaga! (not that i dont support him but yea you get the gist).

back to mugging!!

history

history will always be history, it just depends on how faded the memory is.
I remember letting go a ton sometime ago, making sure I wouldnt ever look back upon it. Now that was hard and now and then I still wonder what would have happened if I didnt let the 'ifs' happen. Whatever beliefs I held true then, still hold true now, and im so thankful God gave me the sufficient grace and strength to come to my senses.
History will always be history, and those long stories i would have told some but not all, slowly fade into nothingness. It is next time when i look back, that I know ill be so proud of myself, that i know i did the right thing!

Cheers to memories!- of which some of it, we should just let go.

IT'S MINE!

im so tired, physically - i feel like an injured bird really, the balls of my foot hurt, the product of days walking around too much, not exactly in very comfortable shoes.
wanted to join the physics/bio people celebrating todayy but ah once again, im so sorry, but just too tired! promise ill be back in action soon, give me a day! :)

have been thinking of making a list of everything i want after watching oprah's show on the earth-person law of attraction thing that is actually pretty interesting. IT'S MINE!
its probably easy to think "it's mine!" if all we have to do is answer mcq questions or something, not that im being jealous, since i admit i really cant do science/ math or stuff like that. counted for my sister, realised that lit/hist/econs people have 18 essays to write, and thats all that counts for our grading man. having said that i really have to say that literature at A level is indeed interesting but we all admit its tough man. like improving is intangible, and you can never replicate success in one assignment for sure in another. its this inconsistency (not just in grades but how you feel towards each poem/prose/drama) that worries me. not sure if i can pull it off when the real thing comes. the strange thing is that you got to have a certain aptitude towards the whole thing to be confident of having everything under your control and manipulating the strange content to your own ways and logical flow everytime. that certain aptitude certainly comes with certain people we already know, but it doesnt appear with everyone who just puts in hard work. those who put in hard work may attain in, but that success doesnt come with hard work all the time. oh well, thats the price we have to pay for doing something we really enjoy, although forcing us to appreciate content in just a few minutes isnt really very enjoyable. I really really think they ought to give all candidates like a compulsory 15 min to appreciate the strange thing first, before perhaps an hour for writing. I understand time is a discriminant in itself, but really even appreciating literature has to be in such a crazy rush?

Whatever it is, like what i told my CT during connect 2, i wont ever regret whatever grades i get because i believe that i enjoyed a super fulfilling school life (even though others would say we enjoyed too much:(, and did all the subjects that we love, even though we may not be the best at it, the only thing is to do your best and live like you should at 17/18!:))

CHEERS EVERYONE, happy celebrating!:))

here are a collection of my favourite photos of all time, and hwee's birthday:))

22.8.08 : Happy Hwee Day:)

We still came to celebrate Teachers' Day although we were all sure we couldnt finish studying in time for prelims! and I baked till late the previous night and ants and abc had to write so many cards! I think that calls for some celebration:)

P.S. We can jump really high eh! haha:)

I cant remember when this was taken but it was definitely during the period we were supposed to settle down to study, no we didnt become jaded at all! :)

the fun bbq albeit the overwhelming smoke:)

mouse and my organised cip! hmm, i wonder where it has gone to, hopefully they keep it for next year too:)

time for family photos!:)

in our dear second home:)

in our favourite New York:)

my dear exco and tae:)

more around school:)

just so little from UK and France,

New York!

And how our school never fails to remind us that indeed everything is possible with labour:)

i remember how worried i was on the day before school started (although for most of the cca people we probably settled in faster than the rest) how radical this shift from bukit timah to farr east would be haha. Leaving behind all the memories from our favourite hangouts - Stevens Road, Serene Centre - island creamery, RTC, Prata House, Guthrie House and Venezia, King Albert Park, Coronation Plaza, Waffle Town, Town, the delifrance at Chancery Lane, Dairy Farm (!!), all my old buses i used to take, 67, 154, 960, etc etc to somewhere so different! i guess all those fears were unfounded and I made the right choice, under the umbrella of my dearest Daddy God under whose Will is always mine to adhere to.

There is always a bright light at the end of the tunnel, but first we gotta work.

Should be signing off not long, in lieu of our favourite exams!

IT'S MINE! <3

"wow, so you're not that kind"

I get a little disturbed when people get to know me better and then they say "oh, so you arent that kind!". i get even more disturbed when people fail to qualify when they mean by that kind! haha.
i mean i remember how some people always told me i wasnt like a typical SCGS girl, but... really? what a shame! Im definitely not refined when eating/ sitting haha although vj skirts have taught me to (hopefully) haha. and then some will be "ooh, you're so typical!" especially my own friends from sc, ok so i guess that has refined my opinion on stereotypes being a non-constant as well.

with this point, i think i meant to get something else across.
i mean, it doesn't really matter how people view you, does it?
Just as long you stay true to yourself and your values, there shouldnt be any need to be angry at people who gossip about you, about people who criticise what you do, people who praise you for what you do. OK, Maybe these views can affect us, as it would affect any normal feeling human being, but it shouldnt be to such an extent that it disturbs our inner emotional equilibrium. Having said that, its also important to make sure your values are sound. Do you let people quickly shake them and leave you all fickle and undecisive? If that is, perhaps you havent really found yourself and that set of principles yet.

To tell you the truth, friends i really admire are those who have found that true set of principles that i personally agree with to, just havent found sufficient resolve to implement it. So to those who have found it ( I have 2 in mine, imagine, after so many years!), CHEERS TO YOU!
Today Oprah's show was giving CHEERS to those she admired and i found myself crying (so embarrassing ok!) everytime those people were surprised, just with simple cheers for their admirable actions.

Also, i think that really, the best way to speak for something, is to show it with actions. Its not easy, but really dont you think its the best? In fact it just disillusions one when someone else says one thing but never does that.

SO now, i would like to give CHEERS to both of you ( i think i told you before so yea :)), and to others who are sure they have found their principles, and are reading this. :)

wisdom, where art thou?

We need so much wisdom in our world today!

Really, I cant emphasize this enough!

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Anyway, i really wanted to take a picture of our exam hall, because i think it was really awesome and so inspiring. But due to no electronic devices allowed at all, i could just be content with the sight of it. oh well, try to imagine this poster

at the back of the hall flooded with classroom tables.

Awesome isnt it? :) the poster is much larger upfront also and the words seem more penetrating since its the only words you can see upon entrance into the hall. Thank you people who thought of putting this up! :) Hopefully it will still be there for As!

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Today was also so so so good because we had such a good time - indulging in fat Carls Jnr burgers (haha leow!), both of us were suddenly quiet for some time, because we were just trying to finish our meal, obviously to no success- after chewing for half an hour i still had the semblance of a burger left. ! and simply chilling in Starbucks, dinner and MAMMA MIA. mamma mia! wasnt it good man! Anthea, Jac Vera and I had SUCH a good laugh (amidst squeals and singing too haha) i tell you, go watch please! :) it was really funny when we spontaneously sang along during 'Super Trooper' and immediately the music stopped for narrative, which left us singing for 2 seconds, so embarrassing ok!

Some really funny things which happened today included:

a) Finding a mysterious packaged thing left by somebody but nobody in the bus and hwee and mc telling the driver, with minimal response. Mc also resorted to kicking it to see what was inside. hmmm!

b) talking about how we used to have centre parting when we were young and how amusing it would be if we still had it now, including forcing leow to demonstrate first HAHAHA.

c) walking around shopping for a long-sleeved shirt for someone and discovering what makes the difference between normal long-sleeved shirts and our 'daddys' shirts'.

some other really hilarious things happened, maybe its just the liberation of the numbing effect of exams. met jessie and teresa and some of their friends, both of them tried to call both leow and i on our phones, but to no avail, as usual, remember the deadly combination - Brown mouse and white mouse together!!! haha. together we are amazingly childish, amazingly blur, playful and we study at the same pace (slow) hahaha, boo! so when we want to get reliable info etc, we tend not to ask each other. also when we want to know what we are doing, we try not to hang around each other haha! the sad thing is that we didnt really discover it ourselves, but people told us! eee.

just engaged in highly moral and religious stuff in my mind, prevented my itchy fingers from typing anymore comments on the overladen blog though. so tired i should go sleep!:)