The dynamics of this 2nd semester has been so so different from last year. With 2 good friends I truly counted on moving out of hall, I was doubtful this sem could still be awesome.

This semester, I havent been going for Cross training at all - its been 7 weeks, probably about 20 trainings or so?
I miss the crossers so much, running alongside and complaining to ameera and tricia especially, i miss you guys so much. dashing those hell-of-a-insane intervals, starting when im even doubtful i can complete them. coming back to hall with dex and baldwin for dinner, soft legs aching to rest the night, but a mind so energetic, it could 'run' another 20 miles worth of academics.

What a big sacrifice I've made this semester, for USP and hall stuff. Chingay, HPB and small peripheral stuff like KR reports etc. To tell you the truth, I havent been 100% or even 90% well since the semester started. I get a sore throat almost forenightly, and a fever maybe once in 3 weeks. And i DONT even eat biscuits.:s like darren said, he felt like a 'live kicking chicken', i think i felt the same too, especially 2 weeks ago, during Chingay. I know that if I dont take time off to rest, I'll really seriously never recover and something drastic might happen. So, I've decided to commit 100% to WMYC, and HPB this semester, and of course academics.

I'll still go for long runs on my own and prob do a 21km for Stan Chart end of this year.

Thank you to all those who've stood by me this time - truly understanding me when I take so damn long to reply smses or reply monosyllabic stuff - its not me to do that, you guys know that, and you guys always make it a point to catch me at a better time, and make me share. esp, jastine, you've been super damn awesome:)

Thank you hpb-ers and 4th floor girls for the discipline you guys share - 8.30am breakfasts EVERY MORNING (regardless of the time we sleep) and study sessions when we can make it:)

Thank you for the joy you guys share when we are doing tough stuff or when we are bonding.

Thank you vera and abc and mc who're always here for me no matter where I may disappear to. the seat you guys save for me at lectures no matter if i turn up or not always remind me of how lucky i am.

Thank you mum and dad for always helping me out and making my life so pretty sweet and comfortable.

Thank you God for giving me everything I need, for Your Grace is always sufficient and I should always, always, always remember that, when the going gets tough.

Tough week ahead - 2 tests, gotta churn out Paper II draft by Friday to be ready for Writing Assistant, China Essay, EL project, secret event:), meetings, IVLE response for pop culture.

just asking, just 24 hours a day, has anyone else done this before, without any secret compromises?

P.S Hwee! if you see this, this is another version of MY FOREVER FAVOURITE SONG, hope you like this version too:D

Inspiration

Bryan shared this with us, Im quite positive that from here on, things can only get better.:)

jane has awesomely summed up my thoughts on the first day of school, back to an impending torturous month ahead :x

Monday, February 22, 2010
it's the beginning

At this very moment, my heart's racing a little, my mind's filled with worrying thoughts; i would say anxiety filled half of my day today, as i think about the 4 mid-sem tests in line the next whole week. I guess it's still manageable if i had the entire week to devote to the studying, but not with 3 night dance practices, 2 group presentations, 1 performance next week (DURING the test week) to rehearse for and a KR dance vetting at the end of the week. This does not include the 2 concerts ill be going this week to support my friends. It didn't help that recess week (last week) was chinese new year AND chingay. How does one manage soo many things with only 24hours per day? Hm, i guess this is hall life.

But I say this with no ounce of regret or sorrow. Chingay had been an awesome experience for me- ironically, i enjoyed the waiting time the most. Thanks to the company that made this experience all the more memorable and so very enjoyable. (hpb guys who never fail to crack me up, bryan! the retardedly fantastic partner XD, the c blk 3rd floor lovelies(: and d block neighbours) it really made the waiting time so much more bearable. It is also only in hall that we get to use the dance studio at 1am and go for 3am supper thereafter. Sharing old, (long and not so funny) jokes with one another (HAHAHA, Val). Dance has always been what I love to do, so I'm definitely not complaining having to go for practices.(: And I know with God's grace, that I'll be able to pull through this 2 weeks of mid-sems. For those who are feeling the same stress about tests & projects, ALL WILL BE WELL.(: Hang in there!

Besides, I believe there's much more to life than studies, right?(; For semester 2, even after IHG and Chingay, it's only the beginning.. of a great sem ahead.

Looking ahead,

Love, Jane.

One will never fully understand what's it like to be in university, until they are in it...really.

Anyway, just got back from jb :D:D:D
came back to hall then met awhile with the crazy hpb-ers then im skyping with hwee now. cant wait to join hwee in UK!:D:D

I gotta wake up early for a longggg run with Tricia tmr, then lunch with crazyyy people again then chingay!

Need to get more work done! school's starting real soon!:x





Till then, byebyebeybeyebyebebyeybeybebyebyeybybe.

I think it's really the start of the New Year this time, at least I'm taking it to be, considering that my English New Year didn't go too well in consequence (i'll tell you more if we meet up heh).

Basically till Week 6 (now), I'd been having way too much on my shoulders, and I'm not kidding. If I continue at that pace, I'd lose the ability to maintain my cap. So, im glad 2 committments have ended (at least for now) and 1 big one, chingay is ending on Saturday. I've decided, really that I shouldn't expect so much of myself - to run, to dance, to organise things, to be enthusiastic in peripheral activities, to maintain my out of hall friends (in nus), to maintain my out of school friends (overseas friends + smu + ntu) + working on weekends to earn extra (which technically isn't that necessary)+ to be faithful going to church + to be a good daughter at home + do my last grade of music studies in September PLUS do well in studies to maintain chances to get Master's sponsorship/ get a good exchange next next year.

I think I've been too hard on myself.

Like eeghim said "being superwoman".

Next time you see me concussed in my room, leave me to take a nap please, dont wake me up, which was the general rule the last semester and for 5 weeks.
Thanks.

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Studied at smu today and met up with many people + it was like a meet-the-girls'-boyfriends day, the world is SO small seriously!:D
Should go more often:D

omg so happiee im abit giddy.

:D:D:D:D

some great ones

IHG Tennis!


SMU!
<3

HPB!:D


C-Block!


Our star 800m runners!:D Christine I heart you big big seriously!:D


KR Charity Run!






GONG XI FA CAI!:D:D:D:D:D IHG is over!
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Today we had 2 mini surprises for ABC - KRUSP & E-blockers, happy 20th ABC!:D
After school it was macs, then cam drove out to newton for supper omg yumyum:D

Evil school put Recess week tgt with CNY- but its not going to get me down!
Chingay and JB next week!:D:D

KR SMU stands for KR Sports Management Unit!

By Boss Chaw Meng to US:D

When I stepped up as chair, I had goals I wanted to achieve. I had huge ambitions. I wanted to raise the bar to the highest possible level. I wanted to do things differently. I wanted a van. I wanted sponsorships. I wanted the biggest- ever publicity. I wanted a closely bonded comm. To do all these, I needed 18 people with the talent and commitment to achieve all these.

However, many had their doubts. Some said I would find it difficult to get people I wanted because I was too ‘kao peh’. Some said what I set out to achieve was unattainable. But I guess when Jacinth, Jiawei and me started picking people from the interviews, we kind of silenced our critics. Ultimately, 18 of the best were chosen from the interviews. Each and every one of you had your own talent. In no particular order:

I have the 2 best designers – SAMUELA and JOANNE GAY. Nearly every part of the hall is plastered with designs by them.
I have kr’s photo comm vice chair LAURA who probably did the nicest photo collage ever together with Tammy, John Woo and Valmond.
I have BALDWIN who’s kr’s marketing exec and started off a totally new thing by searching for sponsorships. Eventually, we got NutritionPark so tt’s a good start.
I have BEN KWAN, WEI HENG, VALMOND and TAMMY who are always helpful enough to do duties even though it may not be theirs
I have DEX who did the scoreboard together with Xiang Fei, Veralyne and Meiyi and updated the scoreboard for the whole IHG period.
I have VERALYNE, JIAHUI, MEIYI, LIONEL, YANLING and XIANG FEI as block i/cs who gave me little problems in terms of collection and accounting of shirts and money.
I have JOHN WOO who will be this year’s ‘Rookie of the Year’ and our fav himbo and who also happens to be nx yr’s sports director.
I have JACINTH who takes charge of everything to do with equipment and stuff herself without needing any help and who’s always willing to take initiative to assist me and Jiawei.
And my vice chair JIAWEI, who's always covers for me, who does practically anything tt I asks for and takes initiative to do things that I don’t ask for in order to lighten my workload.
Thanks for all the meetings and scheduling throughout IHG.

This list is by no means exhaustive. Each of you have contributed to a successful IHG season for smu and I will never be able to finish typing each of your contributions. In short, I had the most dedicated, awesome comm.

Out of the 19 of us, I know of 6 who are already in OP comms. Gay and Sam in FWOC, Jiahui in Flag, Meiyi and Valmond in HPB and John Woo as Pharmacy Rag Chair. I’m sure besides these six, some of you have been approached. This actually reflects how well you all have done. Thus, for those who are doing, live up to the expectations by contributing to these comms how you all have contributed to smu. People see potential in you, so fulfill that potential! =)

Whenever smu is mentioned, I hear superlatives and for that, I would like to thank all of you for making it probably one of the best comms. Without the 18 of you all working towards common goals, this comm wouldn’t have been successful.

Last but not least, I would like to thank CANDY LEE for everything she has done, from liaising with hall admin to covering all our shit.

Thank you everyone once again for making my experience as a comm head such an AWESOME one. =)))
KR SMU 09/10 FTW =)))))

YAY:D

Sometimes when Im so tired and feel like I cant make it anymore,
I think of the enormous amount of chances God has given me, regardless of whether He knew if I could really make it or not.

The chances are there for a reason, and the potential is always there. So, I'll press on.

Its 5 am, but im hardly done with my IVLE postings, due at 12pm (7 hours more only!)

quote Alywin, GAMBATTE!!!!

this is so so so strange.

Something happened today and I actually felt liberated, and happy, like hopeful for the future again.

Perhaps its just the closing of ihg, which gives me some freedom of time:D

I'm not going to think too much.

Sweet dreams everyone:D

I remember the super carefree days, when all we had to do was to wake up on time, to go to school. I remember how everyday was so super fun, sitting in the hall leaning against one another and not wanting to move to classes. Recess time when ill get my favourite banana milkshake and share in the joy of the fried chicken with the girls. although stress levels were up up up in J2, i mean, everything was so awesome - being friends with everybody and anybody without having to deal with the real world.

Things were so much simpler then.

Reminds me of Abc's Paper 1, on how one may seemingly be defending oneself with new and upgraded 'weapons', but eventually, its in fact self-destructible. We thought we would get smarter as we grew older, with more experience and whatnot, but sometimes, not so.

Im not saying today wasn't beautiful, im just saying its...different.

Danced alot, laughed ALOT, shopped a bit and did my nails.:)

The weekend was really awesome, although, im finally left with ZERO voice, a nasty throat and the whole pile of untouched work. I just self-declared a holiday for me today, need to get these done.

1) Paper 1!
2) Writing Mod readings (!!)
3) China tutorial
4) Nation Building test!

Although its been good, it sucks to know that someone else hasn't really been so.
I need to stop all these. Maybe when I become numb to that, i'll fully fully move on.
Strangely, I keep counting down to V'day, no reason to do so anymore, but I'm still a sucker for it after all.
Every 14th of Feb brings something new, and its quite interesting, undoubtedly, I guess, except that I don't suppose i'll have the mood, yet.

What a way to end the weekend, today was awesome, and made up for the week!

Had a chill meetup with sijia and grace, and decided not to be so hardworking and go for makeup tutorial (dont worry ill get the stuff done anyway):D

Had hall dinner with blockers, finally!!:D:D:D

Timed trials, shaved timing ttm woots and found potential in a fellow floor-mate, awesome!

HPB meeting till late, Al Ameen then taboo.

Its 6am. gonna wake up in 4 hours. then its chingay for the whole day.

Will study ultra hard on Sunday morning for Wed's test, finish USP Paper 1 and go for music class. then meeting bryan and clement for secret mission, then its mel's party.

Valmond and I are gonna form a study group too (a out of hall one please) yes and we are on the way to get cap 5. YAY!:D

Sometimes I think I blog too much, but I think its almost the second most therapeutic thing, next to running (non-competitively and without a watch to check the timings, mehhh). Oh yes, having a meal alone in the confines of your own quarters ie. room, living room at home has the same wondrous effect.

I'm getting too little alone time, too little ME time. I'm getting a little burnt out, and numb to things, a little too jaded, for Week FOUR. I'm also relatively ill-informed about the world. So to fix that... today was a bad day for a productive and efficient time management meiyi, but it was a good day for the lazy, chill side of me:D Okay, at least according to my standards.

1) Stayed one extra day at home so I had to wake up at 7.30am to get a lift from Dad back to the West.
2) Came back to hall, did my laundry, cleaned my floor and packed my stuff.
3) Walked up the slope to lecture Nation building with Carol! Sat with Chris and talked about how burdened we were with stuff and how we just.cant.wait.for.this.two.weeks.to.be.over.
4) EL lecture with emily. this is one mod that I have no idea why im taking...but ill suck it up all the same, and do my best.
5) Came back to hall, and instead of doing some readings, I walked to biz and bought kebab rice for myself! + an apple pie! favourite food:D
6) msned with jac in smu stressland:/
7) I was really sooo tired and instead of going for training at src with amelia, I slept in!:D:D:D
8) woke up an hour later, and decided not to be a bum. even though my legs felt like lead, I ran to PGP slopes and did about 6 intervals up the slope. of course, it was slack.
9) came back, bathed and took a walk with lance (who was doing intervals at the mini slope) up to sheares for smu duty!
10) watched a rather entertaining match.
11) back in hall now doing this,
12) gonna meet eng tat in 8 minutes and im really damn proud of this, because finally i will soon know how to map my modules, and things to look out for, NEED MY OVERSEAS EXCHANGE SOON.
13) then gonna mug my head off for lecture off tmr.
14) oh and ive been listening to 93.8fm instead of 98.7:D:D

tomorrow 9-12 its gonna be WMYC planning at ADM, lunch with bryan and clement. then nation building. then WMYC again at 6 to 8. chingay 8-10. study. NEED TO FINISH MY TUTORIAL AND RESPONSE PAPER.

Im quite proud of myself and thankful to God for sustaining me thus far, but right now, I feel like im balancing on a taut, yet shaky string hanging across B block to C block...haha. steady, yet any loss of concentration and i will topple over.
very. precarious. indeed.

Prayers for this week please:
1) Two swollen toes, and a recurrence of my calf strain. Everytime I run, I have extra burden. But my mental has to be stronger than that. just.8.more.days.to.roadrace.
I'm going to see the doctor tomorrow, but I already know what the advice would be: rest. which is for now, quite impossible.

2) Praying for roadrace captain Amelia: down with a shin sprain. Basically our team is in very poor form for Monday's race. We arent supposed to train but its impossible considering how we need to perform on Monday. And of course that people's expectations dont stress any of us out, because they prob dont know how hard it has been...

3) Praying for more runners to step out from their comfort zone and come for the time trial on thursday. I pray that the best from KR get selected and that those arent selected see in their contribution to the team!

4) Pray for my hectic week, that I do my best in studies, USP, hall and keeping friendships alive with sincerity and generosity. Must do this!

5) Pray for my Paper One draft which is Dr. Lo's hands! spent whatever i had of my weekend on it, so i hope it doesnt need serious rewriting:D

6) Pray that I remember to count my blessings more everyday, and that everytime I feel im drowning, to commit it to God and to remember that nothing is impossible.

Alright, going to find Eng tat, have a good week everyone.

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