I havent been sleeping much the last 3 days of 2008, because there's like 893759625289 things to settle, from people to payments to emails to messages aaahhh. ok no that's kinda an excuse hahaa but hey its semi true:)
Its 3am but im still talking to people now because we've got so much to talk about - Im really desperate to do all the deep thinking in 2008, to make sure i know what i want at 23:59 on 31st December 2008, so that when 2009 comes, i can just chiong ahead, fuel, full force!!!
But its what i want, however still humbly submitting to God's will:)

YESSS today's the last house partaayyy my family's putting up for this year, phew to the successful hosting, dinner, company and cheers to the great teamwork with my sisters, allowing me to take a pretty long nap during the afternoon so i could hang on later:) was considering going to jessie's after this whole thing but by the time everyone left the party it was too late:) its ok, 2009 is coming real soon!! im really excited at the prospect of a whole new year ahead of me:)

these are some of my recent photos, including some during the Christmas season, hope you like them too:)

Ive already had some real wacky memories and some crazy experiences hmmm and im totally loving every minute of this blessed holidays! i must say that i didnt anticipate half of the things that have happened, but thank goodness its all good stuff:)
ok, ive gotta go early, meeting Anthea and Mc tmr , then Deb during dinner time then heading to her house for the long-awaited sleepover! cant wait cant wait cant wait:)

See you on tuesday and hope you are having a fantabulous holidays too:)

I forgot to tell you i got scolded badly by someone on Christmas Eve, just cause i got caught up so badly in Christmas and missed out on something for this person, hmmmph (consequences not dire at all from whatever perspective i take)! Funny thing is, this was the worst scolding i got since a long time, plus it wasnt from a loved one or family (my family or real friend would never say such things to me) and not surprisingly, i couldn't remotely care ( or at least care more than i do) . Being one to defend my opinions rather fiercely, saying whatever wasnt like me at all and kinda dampened the spirits of that person. C'mon its christmas DONA NOBIS PACEM, peace to the world, quit being angry man.

and to the strange people adding me on facebook - i usually send out a message to those whose names do not ring any bell in my head, however dense the holidays make it - "Im sorry, i dont think i know you, but then again my memory is quite bad" - IF WE ARENT FRIENDS, the most logical answer you should give A: "oops sorry, wrong person!". acceptable B- "ok i get it, sorry to trouble!". Wrong answer C: "hmmm, was thinking if we could make friends after this?" Totally unacceptable answer D: "Is that a problem? too atas ah?".
ok i could actually do this catalogue, because all these answers really did come back to me. Actually, you can try any of this, you wont get a reply nor an accept. Facebook > Friendster for a reason!

Cheers to the holidays, and hopefully everyone, including me, keeps growing brains!=D

"You sound like someone who travelled 100 miles to get a bottle of beer"

There are 12 days of Christmas, because its to give people 12 chances to discover the real meaning of Christmas:)
Some throw it away already on Christmas Eve and ignore the generous 12 chances, while others settle down during the period and finally come to realization when its nearly over, but at least tis's better.

I chose to use this Christmas to show those I really love, how i really feel.
Christmas Eve was dedicated to my treasured friends, whom without which, i wouldn't be wherever i am now. My favourite girls who have been a constant source of support for me in, and out of school- thank you for all the gifts i really love them=D ; My peers in my third home haha vjcsb, you guys have seen nearly all sides of me, (i think this hols cap it all hmmm), and i know i can be real whenever im with you all:)
Christmas Day and Boxing Day was dedicated to Christ, above all, followed by family:)
Church-time was a time of solemn reflection for me and attempting to articulate what im really looking for in this new lease of spiritual life:) it was followed by the first party we had at home - for relatives and it was good re-uniting with cousins who came down from KL and Australia for the occasion!
Boxing Day was for party number 2, for my sister's friends and of course, her friends also somewhat become my friends cuz i ended up wii-ing with them and being photographer and joining them for dinner. haha the capacity keeps increasing, sister 15 is the max please!!Went to Ikea for lunch and shopping in the morning, and OH, my parents rearranged the house for the new year and its sooo much more comfy now:)
okay although its the 3rd day of Christmas and Boxing Day is over, i havent even finished opening all my presents, i havent even combed the Christmas tree... something i have always done rather religiously in the last few years...

I only just opened a Christmas card today and this friend said this to me- that he'd always be there to keep keeping my secrets and drinking for me - even though he made me sound like this rebellious, split personality scary girl, im really thankful i actually have friends like this, even though he will be kinda stuck in camp for like 1 month and 9 months. hahaha, ok looking forward to your bookouts!

If there's another thing im really happy about, its the weekend :)
What's going to keep us going, is what we've always had, so we have nothing to worry about.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE:) and remember, there are still 9 days left:)

It was the last day of term, and actually, the last day of school.
Then he said at the end of the congratulatory speech -

"okay, its time for...all your secrets."

Im waiting for the Town Council to come collect certain items we've thrown out while clearing up for Christmas...I kind of took it upon myself, a sorta responsibility i assumed since Ive been out everyday and now that all my sisters are busy out, i thought i should volunteer to stay at home at least till 4... sorry Vera! haha:) Im sorrier Pinrui, Jared and Ally haha today's plans all got cancelled. oh well!

I have missed spring cleaning at home and wasn't even there to see the Christmas tree put up and all the decorations. Im not organising any party for my friends this year, although my sis still is, and im not sending out any Christmas cards...Im only giving out some gifts to a select few, which i haven't had the discipline yet to sit down to complete...ah!

The holidays have been really fantastic, and i finally understand the difference between 18 and the years before that. The nights are always young and missing the last bus has become quite normal. Still, i think its important to know what's good and bad for yourself and so I have made a couple of resolutions i'd stick to, no matter what. My parents have been ultra supportive of my lifestyle now, interestingly, and im not allowed to look for any more jobs or take up any more short term contract jobs, which i was really into, the period right after the As.
Its beautiful to be young like that because you are allowed to make mistakes and dismiss it as recklessness of youths when we look back, we are allowed to shape our own lives because we are proactive and strong enough, yet we are kept safe because of family and loved ones and faith.

I love being young, ill treasure being young forever!

Photo's from Daryl's (big) house White Party :)

and you know what, i really appreciate parties like that, because the guys actually help out with preparing food and thats really how you get to bond, not like they assume girls have all the kitchen skills just cuz we are female, okay shant say anymore, my feministic side is surfacing!
Im going to miss the boys so much when early January comes, ahhh:(

take me away

I wish i could just fly away for quite abit now, I need my solo adventure now, not in January or March, i need it now. Since thats nearly impossible, i guess its equivalent to wearing Harry Potter's invisible cloak when I travel, or perhaps even disposing of the handphone for a day or two, the more the merrier - also equally impossible.

Ok ok it will be all over soon, Christmas is coming soon (please come sooner than a week!).

im in the sacrificial mood now because i just remembered what Chara told me when i met up with her on friday. Chara Lum Ying Ying, whom i invited for Majestia in May this year, came and couldnt find her ticket - my classmates were supposed to leave it at the booth under their names, so that when she came late, she could collect it to enter. Alas, she couldnt find her ticket despite searching a thousand names she vaguely remembered me telling her- classmates, bandmates etc. So she spent the two plushours walking around Esplanade, getting me the chocolates (which i can still remember, and seem even dearer to me now!) and eating at Haagen Daz (where she kinda got cheated- $13 if you eat in (!!)). haha and poor eunice watched it alone. Funny thing is i didnt sense anything after it because when i asked Chara how it was, she didnt really reply audibly, so i thought since she was a fellow player in another band, she thought it was bad or something! ok NOW I KNOW:)

aww, charrraaa im primary 2 friend till today- i love you!
and i just watched the thanksgiving episode on ellen's show i love it i love it and sorry hwee, but i like ellen! because she is rather cool. heh:)

oh yea, and because im in the sacrificial mood, dont question what im doing _______, really dont, just listen to me, thanks- i appreciate it, really.

I was so tickled yesterday when i received the email from Stan Chart, giving me the picture they took when i crossed the finishing line! technology is amazing, they trace the bib no to you and send it back to you. im impressed! but awww what a pity though, there wasn't that triumphant look spilled across my tired face, neither was i pathetically hopping over the electronic mat haha well, it was just normal. oh and no, im not putting it here! haha. Shan! you made me race with you the last few hundred metres ill never forgive you!!! anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAN, you're finally 18 ! whacks* haha.

Had a crazy and awesome day yesterday, met jessie and friends in vj at 9 plus, to check out the NSSN full-run, you guys are great cant wait for tmr!:D left early to meet Mr phua (HAHAH) and Anthea for lunch then met Hwee in town, walked around and i still cant find that ideal pair of heels ah! toffeenut at starbucks then went all the way to changi airport because Anthea wanted to say bye to her brother. we ate at POPeyes, planned our schedules then went back to parkway for bubbletea! My imagination is running wild Hwee and Anthea, i cant wait to plan a MASSIVE party HAHAHA.

On a more serious note, i cant believe i thought what i did yesterday, i mean, what is wrong with me! seriously! i was disappointed in myself for quite abit hwee! its precisely whatever i was thinking that would put our friendship at risk and no i would NEVER risk that for the WORLD. and i mean that! im going to have a blast, in my own way as i always do, and i wont let ANYTHING affect that!

tomorrow's going to be another whacky day, cant wait:) meeting up with CHARA! like finally glam queeen! ahha then im meeting the rest for dinner, then back to vj, oh and the world is really too small, majella's younger sis is performing tmr so ill see her and her family! hoping she doesnt shout "Woman" to me across the whole hall again, as she used to do back in SC!

last but not least, my heart goes out to all those awaiting the results of overseas university admissions tomorrow, i said a little prayer for you all this morning,
Psalms 31:24 Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the Lord.
Can you smell the absoluteness in that statement, He SHALL, not he might, or consider. He Will, He Shall. Thats sufficient for us to tide over tonight, dears!

Advent

today's my FIRST DAY at home, without any plans later or tonight! YAYY! WHEE!! haha okay okay.

and thats only because i decided to recuperate at home and not visit my juniors busy preparing for concert today, sorry dears and thanks junsen for organising! even so, im so busy packing and packing, yes ok fine jastine im slowww ok, only just started packing my books and stuff after the big As! didnt flinch while throwing away ALL of southeast asia, the rest are so precious im passing them to gillian:) stacked them all into my storeroom and my room is so empty and clean now:) YESS! - i have no idea how people can complain they are bored, or that the holidays have been wearing them out, i have been living everyday to the fullest and i still have a list to go on with! I have also decided that i will postpone the start of my official job, since it would be stupid to start today then apply for leave for this friday and next wednesday that would really reflect badly!

Sunday's run was good, fulfilling for me, although i think Stan Chart should seriously STOP increasing the numbers to fill up the already over-populated routes. Seriously i think once you stop, (i didnt want to try), perhaps like 5 people will bang into you, yes thats how bad it is, it got better after like 4km though, when the people started spreading out. oh but the new route is mad but shiok, i think about 500m of upward slope, but thanks to Macritchie training, still managed to continue all the way, but i was really sad during that trying period because i lost lorraine jess, jean and shan during that time! thank goodness i met shan after that and then we ran tgt all the way after that:) If there is a secret i have, that is to be able to join the marathon, or run team next time im university, that shall be my goal! Marathons are actually more of a mental test than anything else, cant wait to run 21km next year!

Ok and then yesteday, i went with my mum to the tailor again, to make another 2 more dresses for christmas, cant wait to see them:) and yay thanks to hwee, she has reminded me to draw up our schedule for the coming weeks, so many things to do, and im even more excited, as we await for the birth of Jesus:))

We are in the midst of Advent, and I
CANT WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS, BLESSED DAY!

A midnight post, perfect:)

and when you're standing here in front of me, that's when i know God exists

life has been so beautiful and giving, there's nothing i can be more grateful for:)
No pictures or words can express how happy I am, the holidays are into its mere 2nd week, and i think it has already been my best holidays in my whole life so far! It has been really fulfilling and purposeful, i just updated my schedule of what i have done, and everyday is filled with variety but the bad side is that i have only spent ONE full day at home, which is quite sad, cuz i havent been able to fulfill my long-awaited dream of awaking without the alarm clock or when i feel like it, and i havent watched the tv for the whole day in my big shirt and shorts and just lounge around the house! haha i wonder when i can ever do that!

Prom was very good for me and am quite thankful i couldnt hear the negative comments spewed by a certain group of people (frowns at them*) and so were the activities after that - we went midnight swimming because meritus mandarin had a 24 hour pool and we had the whole pool to ourselves! service was fantastic too:) but the water was SO COLD annabelle and I were having locked jaws or something it was hilarious! crazy anthea, hwee and jac were bionic women they immediately started swimming! After that, we had about 3 to 4 hours of sleep, before jac, anthea and I woke up to go eat the macs breakfast, walking into a central district macs in our pajamas! haha seriously, it was a hilarious experience! checked out during the afternoon, headed home to pack up, before i went for my job interview! Was feeling quite whoozy halfway due to the lack of sleep but i survived it yay:) ok that was an interesting day and i think one of the best sleepovers i ever had, thank you girls so much:)

Met Jean to run at ECP yesterday before i introduced her to our vj favourite hangout PARKWAY! haha it was so funny because she was really amazed at how cheap the bubble tea was and the fact that they had small pearls! then she came over to my place and I had fun showing her my whole collection of photos gathered during these two years. she was right about how all of us went different ways yet we believe we all made the right choices:)

today was so busy yet again and tmr also, so i shall sign off now!

some things i missed mentioning:
class gathering, band outing and all the beautiful photos, jessie where are they!

and bye bye jac to australia, vera to vietnam! mc and annabelle are still overseas and anthea is going soon too! going to miss you girls sorely.

and i really miss char-char po, havent seen her since the last day of my arts paper :( enjoy yourself in Israel though, have a blessed church trip there, hoping we have telepathy here!:)

VEGAS

Prom was a blast. I REALLY enjoyed myself and there was no disappointment whatsoever.

Pictures for now, more talk later,

gotta blast off for sleep, tmr's Supermassive and sunday's run!!:))