Your light Will shine

You know you have days where you sing praises of worship and suddenly you just become so engaged in the envelope of God's love which just floods you? It floods your heart and soon you feel you arent even standing on solid ground. Everything becomes so surreal and the friends you are amidst dont really seem to be there anymore, its into another world, or what I would call transcendance.

Transcendance doesn't come cheap. You could feed on booze to experience another kind of transcendance i guess. Thats the cheapest it can get. To experience the transcendance of real meaning, one including serene calmness comes from something not money can buy, not the maximum SAT scores you can get, not shopping to make you happy, not manicures and not pedicures, not the latest movies, nor the sleekest Ipods you can ever find. None of those. In fact if you want to think of a reason, you can articulate it for the world yet not understand it. You have got to experience it.

This experience (or so in my narrow perspective of life these 18 years) comes from simply opening your heart and mind to Him, whether or not we are singing in church or simply praying for a friend. Believe it or not, my second last experience at this 'transcendance' was a mighty 2 years ago, with my last experience during one of the rehearsals for Dona Nobis Pacem (Grant us Peace) for our Majestia XXIII. I assure you i heard a chorale singing the hymn, and experienced a wider space so much more than where i was. I would blink my ears if i could to check if i was hearing correctly, i mean maybe it was just the fantastic harmony being supernaturally in tune, but no it was something more than that. I looked around to check if others were similarly taken in by the peculiar event, but no, everyone seemed perfectly as they were... my soul fed then and even though standing next to so many, I knew none of them would see my tears or my surge of gratefulness. Amazingly, its just between You and Him.

We are like a kite, and He is holding the string from anywhere below where we are flying. We may be tangible miles apart yet we are intangibly attached. The trick is making this intangiblity tangible in everyway. Offhand i can count so many friends who have been discouraged by this invisibility and i cant say ive never been through that. But if you call yourself happy with just that amount of things you have, seemingly happy I would say. I really crinch at the thought!

If you are a Christian visitor here and you can afford some time, or even if you arent a Christian and would like to, just take some minutes off to listen to my dear favourite evergreen blog-song which should have been playing, replay it if need be and think through all the lyrics. Ill welcome you everyday, everytime you feel weak yet you need strength, everytime you feel life isnt just how it was anymore.

This is how you stay happy my dear. :)
And remember, we are all still trying :)

ALAMAH

Quote Mc: "Alamah"!!

haha shouldnt it be alamak?! lol

why is everything so alamah!

all about the wordplay

a week before cts, wait or was it 2 weeks before cts, cant really remember!
annabelle i really want to sit on that scary thing, but im really scared i fly out and die before my A levels! hahaha.

BACKK!
and alive from cts!

if you see my brain on the street, make sure you salute it!!

it has survived much! travelled around the world to kashmir, pakistan, israel, china, burma, vietnam, malaysia, indonesia and actually dublin too because of Juno and the Paycock.

oh and i nearly forgot! if you see my right hand on the street too, do give it 2 salutes and maybe a bow yea? :)

10 essays on average in a mere 12 hours for the arts papers!

:) im proud of myself and all my classmates and yet i know if that was the kind of work i was going to give in the A levels i wouldnt mind shooting myself 10 times over now! i guess i have reason to be proud because i crammed what people were doing over the entire term into the last 3 or 4 days. if i count honestly, i think i studied only for mids for 10 days. I also realised that i didnt even catch up with those stuff I missed when we missed school while in New York!

I think one of the things that really kept me going was how we girls we in it together, how we all were kept so busy during term and really had to slog hard these few nights. Majestia, tennis season, softball and hockey match supports, tuitions with ants and abc, we were hardly given time to really rest and really settle down for work. our momentum was only destroyed once school hols started but then again we all had our own plans for the first two weeks! Thank God for also all the strength present with us, the strength I can never comprehend how it came about! the strength of my hands and my fingers, the strength of my mind despite the late nights, the strength to keep our spirits high!

Even though going back to school on Monday for a rather important test was dreadful, somehow i felt really good going back to school. VJ has been something really special to me and i can safely say for nearly all of us because of so many memories. i mean there will always be unpleasant ones but we learn to live with it and it makes us stronger. But overall, i think going school has been great and i really love all the friends ive made this past1 and a half year. Will miss school badly once study term kicks in =/

was supposed to watch Sex and the City with the girls today after dinner. the movie was supposed to start with 9 but my mummy wanted to come home before 12 so i gave it a miss! she has been really worried ever since the news of a trend of increasing youths and people of all ages going missing. She is really suspicious of that bridge near my home and she is always very worried when i come back after dark. oh dear! no wonder she always makes sure she fetches me from whereever i am nowadays... my dad too! but somehow my mum has this very strong instinct thing about her advice to us and thats why i always have no qualms of adhering to it. Somehow what she always feels is always quite accurate! Quite scary but good i guess!

My sister is arriving back on 7th July morning. I should be going to the airport to fetch her in the wee hours of the morning before going to school! Its strange how i only really really start missing my sister when she's about to come back haha. She has been gone for close to 6 months and its fine time she's back! She has already been conversing in Spanish with my dad on the phone or email! amazing sister who learns different languages like a b c! She has taken my dad's genes, he can speak fluent, and i mean fluent Thai, Jap and Spanish. Can write them too. Wow.

I feel like signing up for the basic driving theory test but i know i will regret it when the test comes and im caught up with work and all. Ok we have to hit ikea soon, have a list of things to give some favourite people of mine! haha, official handover's coming soon!

online shopping!!

omgosh i cant get myself off online shopping! dang and it doesnt help that i keep seeing stuff i like!

ok i've decided after As ill like sell half of my wardrobe, seriously, almost all of them are new if not worn once, and after that i dont seem to like it anymore or it doesnt seem to like me anymore. seriously i think i could earn quite a lot.

ok, i have to keep reminding myself that now is a bad time to be doing this. Bad time, bad time!

anyway, i just called mark hoping to get some "pearls of wisdom" regarding history and found out that almost all our class guys are at a pub now??!!! does not help to have a slack class. I think A13 can be one of the slackest jc classes in history!

oh no!!

- Worried

:)

Im regretting a teeny lil bit on my last sentence in my last post. haha see it? but yea ill stick to it :) just making a point form thingy here so i wont forget what to update on:

1. At MC's and Class chalet, with funny photos:)
2. different study groups, ...very interesting (esp the one in school and pp) !!..
3. phone calls and 'long lost friends'
4. how life always always plays tricks on you, jessieee!!!

Upcoming:

1. SATs on sat, lunch with junior exco, cut hair!prince caspian and funny funny things!
2. Dr Goh's bash? lol.
3. make up econs :(
4. girls' night out! Clarke Quay and pictures
5. dentist!
6. organise cip with brown mouse!

OK then it will be the cts. good luck to everyone!=D