What I do in One day

I realised I havent talked about the things I've done in a narrative style/ranting in quite a while. Usually its just phiosophising/clearing my thoughts...

What happened that time when a few of us : abc,vera, wei heng mathew and I escaped the fire drill by going to the biz library after dinner to mug, whilst imagining being laser-pointed from people on the other side of the glass windows downstairs? So crazy.

What happened to the days when a few of us were getting desperate to start studying and nearly camped in the reading room, shuffling between our books in the pockets of time we had in between late night committee duties/ trainings? We were so desperate.

What happened to those mornings when the Reading Room Group (Yes there is one:)) fervently woke each other up for lessons and breakfast the next morning after the late night/ early morning? So impossible.

What happened that time when ah choy and I decided to go for a run and ended up freaking far away we had to run back (not cos we wanted to) but because it was way too far to walk back, anyway. from a simple jog to a near marathon. pretty amazing.

What happened to the time when darren, bryan and beng tatt crept up behind me while i was listening to my earphones and eyes glued to the screen in my room, which happens to face away from the lobby area - so dangerous.

What happened to my choir auditions, where I gathered the courage to sing my favourite song, to the a room full of seniors and much-better singers? so unthinkable.

I want to remember each of these small, trivial episodes one month from now, and even one year from now. the fun will definitely have to end someday, some how, when I grow up a little more and perhaps have to put studies first first first. like in my honours year or something.

For now, ill relish it.

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Yesterday was a good day, political science till 12pm, then WMYC meeting till 2pm, met sijia and grace for lunch and talked till 5 plus, before heading back for dinner. Chingay costume fitting then chionged History for a bit, before meeting weiquan and elvis at sheares for Sheares Chicken:D:D resumed WMYC meeting Part II at clement's room till 2am, before I headed back to my room and K.O-ed.

Night cycling later, starting at midnight. Amazing how this can mobilize everyone to get some sleep. Everyone's either at class/ trying to get some work now till dinner time, then everyones gonna try get some sleep till midnight. the Whole of KR asleep at 6pm. Funny.

I'll want to remember tonight.
Tonight's gonna be a good good night:D

Everything has been ok so far, thank God:D

It was supposed to be a discussion on Aceh's freedom movement during SEA tutorial today, and somewhere along the way we drifted off...

Person A:"University life is so boring, oh man."
Person B:"Yea, plus its so competitive here, whats the point really."
Person C: "Yea...*agrees fervently*",

then turns to me...waiting for me to agree...and I guess i just had nothing much to agree with. They gave me a very surprised look and immediately asked if I was in hall.. haha so smart people these days are. Like how they immediately ask if im going to be teacher when they know im going to major in History!

thats just because university life has definitely NOT been boring for me...in fact quite alot has happened since the start of school, and I just wish all my old friends from vjc were here to share it with me, although I still attempt to articulate some of which becomes less meaningful when articulated...
Most important of all, I think I've grown quite a fair bit since everything started,
Academics have just been half of my life; training - running and running (failing sometimes) and me questioning my own ability and my own commitment towards running quite a bit; my injury to my leg which made me pretty demoralized and helpless after forcing myself to train while trying to stretch the pain away, in the impossible hope that it would heal in the end; but getting over it;D; hall life which can quite consume quite a bit time-wise and socially; but finding my own discipline and group of friends i know i'd want to walk through this journey with; getting into committees and deciding to be more pro-active by joining more things like Road Race and Chingay in hall; trying out for something and getting the God-given opportunity I thought beyond myself-committee for WMYC for USP; and of course pulling myself away from more tempting committments like more committments in USP and Arts; deciding not to pursue music in Uni anymore (but of course still doing it externally every sunday:D); getting skinner not by choice (side-effects of hall food);becoming a little more lack-of-sleep tolerant; being slightly more concerned for my best friends (a few out of quite a number who came to NUS) like cheering them up when they are down, because when they are happy i am happy:D; maintaining a out-of-hall and school rls; basically getting out alot from this invaluable experience.

I guess life could be boring if i didnt put myself into these circumstances. but then again, Im highly doubtful of that. I mean, I had a hard time settling down in hall at first, because I couldnt tear myself from the old lifestyle i had - the wonderful East, meeting up w the people only going to Aust next year, going Batam, late nights out with mouse and the rest, spending sufficient time with my family etc.
I guess sacrifices have to be made if you want more good things to come...Im glad im seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and it seems to be drawing nearer everyday.

Hall is fun, even better now that (mostly) everyone respects me for who I am, I am blessed to be on 4th floor.
I am blessed to be in C block because I've learnt so much more reality and how life is, ever since IBG till now...
im blessed to be in a very non-judgmental faculty USP:D (im always not there, but they know im crafting out something over here in hall:D)
im blessed to have such good friends in NUS - abc,vee, mama, ex-iras colleagues, fellow moe ts
im blessed to have found a pretty solid grp of friends in hall and block
im blessed, im blessed, im blessed.

I know its futile to say this, but I wish things would just stay this way.
but of course wishes mayn't always be practical.

p.s: today the cross people were planning the dec trip, i can't go, cos of dubai+egypt for super long with my family! sad but still excited for my trip:D

if only i could stab myself, then split my heart into a few pieces.

Sometimes when I talk too much, its because I need to hear what I think for myself.
Sometimes when I appear too positive, its because Im tricking myself into forgetting the hard things.
Sometimes when I run too fast, its because I know if I dont, all the more I know I can't do that.

This coming week is going to be tough.

I really wonder how im going to be in time for the exams which are merely 5. weeks. away.

Its almost ridiculous how much i miss VJ, like seriously i think outsiders (non-patriotic Vj people) will think I just cant get over it. Or rather we cant get over it.

University life is really tough you know, im sure if its just Singapore or something, but everyday is just so demanding, and the frikin bell curve, class participation, having to print and do everything yourself, etc. I mean I think im quite happy with my results, but it pains me to see others be so upset because their efforts didn't pay off, like what did they do to deserve such a bad unhappy thing!:(

Emo-ing in hall now, didnt go back this weekend because my whole family is like overseas and hall is so quiet on weekends im so not used to it:(

Celebrated Anthea's birthday today though, the photos cheered me up:)

The uncertainty of everyday is almost a wonder in itself. How can every single day be so different? How can one day suddenly change someone's mindset and affect relationships so much, how does it have the power to alter life's events, just how powerful is one single day?

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I went for a lone long run to West Coast today and felt so good, haven't had much time to go almost anywhere on my own for a long time and the space was much appreciated.

"The body does not want you to do this. As you run, it tells you to stop but the mind must be strong. You always go too for your body. You must handle the pain with determination..It's not age, not diet. It is the WILL TO SUCCEED".

RUN ON.
thank you Vera, Jairus and Baldwin today :D

Bullet trains

okay, after this weekend is up, really time to settle down and get cracking, for the final exams. Quote Dudley's friend "If i don't mug, I will die."

So true.

and i forgot to say PINK AND BLUE IS SO HOT here in C block OH NO, pleaseee spareeee meeee.

Warning 1) to me:

4k: "don't feel left out (cos they started ytd already), no one will be left out in this!! *evil laughter*"

Warning 2):

Mathew:

"haha.. seriously.. u better be more careful cos ur door latch broke (HOW DID THEY KNOW THIS OMY)!
&
"haha,please be careful tonight, dont leave ur wallet and matric card lyin around
or hp
today i got some msg form janice, sayin please date me please
hahah".

HAHAHA. FUN, BUT OHHH NOOO.

:D

its friday:)

E-learning week comes to a close and a new (equally) hectic week starts again. Right now, its past the initial uncertain stage,where you're not sure what to do, or exactly how or well your best is. Im more or less pretty settled in, regardless of whether I have sufficient points to stay or not for next year im not that concerned, what's most important is that I join the things I have a genuine interest for/ dont clash with my other committments (like my family holiday in Dec CANT WAIT!) , and they must be so important until im even willing to give up part of my academics for it if i had to (its impossible not to do so, trust me).

WYMC under USP is also an exciting prospect for me next year, and i just hope I live up to everyone's expectations...have been meeting up almost either with Elvis or with the entire board of committee heads.. this plus project meetings and the usual cross trainings have occupied my elearning week quite abit!

Meanwhile, managed to spend some time with the girls; sea-sports VJC people heheh jessie, louis, li ying, sam, sid, hansel, jordan,annabelle and also met up with some outside people. It was heartwarming and i'll never forget how comfortable I am with these people, no holds barred, no need to do things for the sake of doing things...you get what I mean.

Freshie Supper was yummy too and though we spent nearly 3 hours in the kitchen, I managed to nap for an hour before supper so was pretty much more refreshed! some photos plus some from MAF (Mid-autumn festival) celebration last week too! (click on image to view enlarged collage)


Besides many meetings, I think work's going pretty okay, although I need to play abit of catch up over the weekend, as well as remain consistent for next week's syllabus.

My sister is coming back to Singapore this weekend, cant wait to spend time with my dear sister:D

Have a great weekend YOU:D

I haven't

I won't say I have it any easier than my peers in other universities who are constantly stressed by daily presentations and readings, though the number of presentations I have to give in a week are probably much lesser and don't mean much to us ( My EL group's the only one who still does impromptu presentations in tutorials). We've also had a recess week already and this week is E-learning week (of which I do not agree is any less slack than normal school days).

I think my challenge lies in having to deal with everyday which brings something new.
Living with friends during the weekdays and family on the weekdays trains your emotional stamina, because now you can't really throw tantrums anymore (remember the black faces you could give at home just because you were tired?) neither can you chill by eating one whole packet of Ruffles while watching Ellen Degeneres and Oprah Winfrey back to back.

Training your discipline: oh yes this is awesome.
Restraining yourself from unhealthy suppers and reminding yourself to go to bed, although you feel you dont really need it (at night). Studying till you just want to kill yourself cos you know if you dont study now, you TRULY dont have any other time to study hahaha.

Reminding yourself of what's important in life:
Amidst so many events and work and opportunities to do what you like, you finally get a REAL chance to decide what it is that you really want to do.

And having to keep yourself on your toes all the day:
There is never a day I find I can just lie on my bed and fall asleep / take naps anymore...there is just no time...

Though there are many things that have changed, there are also some things that have not.
1) How God is ever so real to me, although I think im spending lesser time with Him now (im working on this). How He comes to me in small instances like some nice stuff people say or good advice they give that keep me on the go always and remind me of how beautiful life is.

2) How my best friends since Primary School, Secondary School and JC and outside friends have not changed.

3) How I still love everyone I love.

Thank God for the many opportunities He has given me and I just blossom in His grace, because His grace is just so sufficient.

Thank you God.