My biggest fault was not allowing God to take me on the healing process, and me trying to handle it all on my own.

Thanks C for letting me know something I've not been able to admit.

True happiness sets in from now onwards:)

Maybe I'm aunt agony to too many, Im starting to be brought down too. Finding it harder to let my own happiness spread to others, lest does it keep me feeling invincible.

So when I get the feeling that I can conquer all, I'll remember it forever and hold on to it tight.

Update

A compilation of some photos taken since the holidays kicked in, I have some reservations calling it summer because I realised its quite a pseudo-angmoh term, since well, Singapore doesn't have 4 seasons. :)

Its been quite an awesome few weeks, and I've taken on responsibility to take down on my notebook what I've been doing everyday. Coping back at home (after not staying home on a daily basis for 1 year) has also been something new, yet still familiar: helping out with housework, kind of taking over what my mum has to do without me around, spending more time with my parents, and basically showing I treat home more than just a hotel, as I realise sometimes my schedule forces me to do -- the early mornings back home and then resting 4 hours before heading back to school/ work.

Also, due to the lack of time/energy, I've been forced to prioritise many activities for friends: in this sense, I realise I really have to spend my time where its worth, get what I mean? And also looking long-term...what do I want to keep? Definitely my friendships with sec school pals, vj girls and cca mates and of course some others, some hall friends, and crossers and church mates, and really its a done deal, I really dont have much time left. Also going back to school almost every 3 out of 5 weekdays keep me on the move.

Had a good talk about life over some Edinburgh yesterday and yes, I believe with God to help me, I'm on the right track.

Being perfectly honest about what one wants is really not easy, but we've got to keep striving, because only our true self warrants true reciprocal happiness and satisfaction. No more putting up fronts just to accomodate people, but of course we've got to stay reasonable too, that shouldn't be a problem. :p (This is applicable to both social networking as well as the academics uhhuh)

Time to pull some handbrakes.

Have been on cloud 9 since CBB ended, cos thats when school really sorta 'ended' for me, one month later than everyone.

So I have been out everyday, everyday, then every dawn :(
Time to pull some handbrakes, before I lose myself.

Everything in moderation, people!

LL if you see this, run tgt soon, we needa talk!:)

Was looking through the botanics photos on fb, and I just realised that I miss the crossers, alot. and I don't know why. Every time I sneak time to go for trainings once in a while, it seems like I can't get enough. Does running together and squeezing our lungs out forge special bonds, or is it just me again, to think the better of everything more than it actually is?

Have been in school conducting interviews, training later. 10 x 2 min 45s. omgggg.