Im one of the only few left still employed, so im kinda missing out on the small lil' meetings we could have, but i still love you all a lot and our time will come soon!

Anthea's upload of all the old photos made me miss school all over again, and i really cant believe how great school was for me - you all formed a really important part of this. Even though we played a lot, we went through a lot of downs together too and i havent said this since results were out but im so happy we all did SO WELL and that we can all go to our first choice unis, locally or abroad. love you all!!

It has been a fulfillng week so far and Ive been kept on my toes for as long as i can remember - i havent had a late morning for about 6 weeks to nearly 2 months! Weekday and Saturday mornings at work and Sunday mornings at church!
Music and driving lessons plus gyming keep my evenings busy, and of course meeting up with loved ones and spending time with family fill all the little gaps with lots of love:)furthermore there are interviews and tests and SATs to keep my mind and current affairs knowledge on the ball, uhhum.

And of course, there are always sacrifices to be made - Often i feel envious (okay not really the green with envy kind but just the pining) of my unemployed friends who enjoy their beauty sleep and leisure time, getting the most of Vitamin D (since they are actually able to catch the sun) unlike me:/

I was just thinking about it today, and i wonder why it is so me, just the need to have a million rationales for doing something, before i actually do it. Besides shopping and the recent episode of signing up for the gym membership, impulse isnt really quite my cup of tea. I need a lot of convincing and persuasion from others and from my inner self (which comes from a lot of prayer and finally acceptance) before I let go and move on to something new, much less feel discontented with my current disposition. Maybe its just inborn in me this super-satisfied person filled with gratitude with what im given(as my CT wrote in my testimonial), or perhaps i just sink into a lackadasical mode after years of chasing the conventional - education system the biggest part of it all. Why im still hanging on to my job amuses me and leaves me puzzled at myself sometimes. But its undeniable there's a small satisfaction that hits me everyday at the end of work even though that particular day might have gone horribly - and, no its not the pay. Customer Service Satisfaction they say.

I need time to think, and perhaps by then the 3 day work week would have kicked in and ill feel less dismal since ill finally have more time on my hands. Its having so little time at your own desk and your own bed with your own things surrounding you and lounging around the living room that's the root of my distress. How ironic.

Ahh.

core strengthening

Jo if you see this, i love you too!! and i cant reply you as of yet, but ill give you peace when i can so here goes,

Music is the art of the Prophets, the only art that can calm the agitations of the soul; it is one of the most magnificent and delightful presents God has given us.

talk to you real soon miss you 400% (1/24 x 100% x 4!) dont ask me why 4 but im wondering why 1/24 isnt it 1/12!! hahaha :)

and Yess pilates and authentic worship!
thanks dear:)

it's been a year

Its been a year since we ventured to the Big Apple and Manhattan, things have obviously changed since we all arent together overseas and kinda made to live around each other under freezing temperatures - the boys are scattered around tekong and other places unknown while the girls are all pursuing our individual temp jobs!

MISS YOU ALL! and fat enghwee stop blocking me in every photo!! :)

This weekend was good, primarily because of Easter celebrations!
I've come to accept the need to surrender - im not going to be anxious over emails or letters or calls coming in anymore and im just going to take in everything He gives. im going to encourage Furby and others who call me to check whats going on in this wonderful island while they are stuck somewhere else...

Caught Shinjuku today :) and finally we caught one movie enough to keep our attention span - the gore and fighting was good enough for restless people like me!

Going to take a few days of leave in the next few weeks, and im sure planning in advance - people look out for the dates to keep free and pleaseee keeep them freee for meee! thankew!:)) and yes, all the best to all the uni people taking their exams tmr and the next few weeks!:))

for now, its back to the work week:/

today (8.4.09) is officially the worst day of my life. to be specific, the first few hours went pretty badly and i was just so disappointed because after what i said yesterday (see last line of last post), it wasnt meant to be like that.

but as always, i mean, there's always no time to sit there and cry a bucket. so yea.
but gosh thank you so much friends - lunch and dinner at famous places with jon muk and jastine, ben and jerry's with anthea, and yess i did something drastic like sign up for an entire year of gym membership with something even more drastic like personal training. and thanks to the million people who messaged me and remembered this such trivial thing though i told you years ago, thanks for all the advice, calls, emails (esp deb!) and thanks jo for the duper long email you must have taken 2oo years to write that (ill reply you real soon!)

i just told deb that i just want to write essays and read good books, told jon muk that i want to take a break year and on further thinking do something drastic like spend 2 months on a desert; and i just told jac i want to live in her storeroom and take care of pudgy for the rest of my life. to anthea maybe ill be your personal secretary, to annabelle, ill help you promote nikki leow to become world-dog seriously, to mc: ill help you download ANYTHING in this world, to hwee: ill be your maid in your nottingham hall dorm and to abc: ill make you a portable tv, to vera: ill plan all your world tours.

thats what i really want to do and say when im in a bad horrible mood! im most probably thinking too much and that's bad because the older you grow the better you can read people and discern situations so yea you kinda know whats coming.

butterflies and love

Things have been really on the ball for me, picking up from the week of my Grandpa's passing - working (peak period filing is no fun, but my colleagues make it so good:))overtime - cutting lunch breaks into half, coming earlier and leaving later; getting my gym membership and going for a personal training session(!!);)getting more driving lessons (test's in july!), finishing my USP essay and apps on the last day of the EXTENDED deadline, SATS in May, preparing arrangements for my Electone classes, preparing for the law interview, preparations for Easter and being around for loved ones;)

Havent being doing much of what I've been doing the earlier part of holidays - meeting up with the classgirls:/ and one-to-ones too (sorry mouse hwee and jastine for having to keep cancel), emailing jo overseas (love you jojobeans!;(, meeting up with jessie louis eric liying altgt, meeting up w the army guys, macritching- with lln jean and shan. i miss you jill too! As a result, i miss all these people so veryyy much - hence, favourite photos to help me through today!

it gets even worse when so many of them are most prob going overseas to study - :(

One thing bad about me is how im really sentimental over relationships and all, I really hate it when i dont have enough time hang out with friends and loved ones, MY LIFE WOULD TOTALLY SUCK WITHOUT YOU all!at the same time, i kinda want to make this holidays the most productive one ever since the next few years in uni wont give me the space to do so. As such, i want to become extremely fit, be able to drive myself around, pick up a great language and polish up my mandarin-speaking (which ive been doing at work (despite what poh jun and edwin say heh), improve my reasoning skills (since its really so darn important), and become closer to daddy God.

Guess sometimes like what jon muk said, you gotta give and take, and like what i always remind myself, how He will bring you through it if He brings you to it.
Was having a good talk with my mummy last night and she said how proud she was of me that Im sensible and how my head's firmly sitting on my shoulders even amidst some pretty major changes in life - sometimes all you need are these, to keep you going going going ;) Thankew mummy for always being so fantastic, how you are always celebrating what happens in my life (like how i see you stealing secret smiles after i tell you what happen and how you are always so happy for me;) Thankew daddy for being so accomodating in driving me around and speedy-gonzales-ing me down to work (i know its entirely my fault heh), sisters for being pillars of sensibility, sid for always being there and how you totally understand my weird-est moments and its funny how i can totally send incoherent smses to you at any time, girls for being most understanding of me, love you all soooo much!

OK im ready for today, for the week ahead, and of course, for April ;)