today (8.4.09) is officially the worst day of my life. to be specific, the first few hours went pretty badly and i was just so disappointed because after what i said yesterday (see last line of last post), it wasnt meant to be like that.

but as always, i mean, there's always no time to sit there and cry a bucket. so yea.
but gosh thank you so much friends - lunch and dinner at famous places with jon muk and jastine, ben and jerry's with anthea, and yess i did something drastic like sign up for an entire year of gym membership with something even more drastic like personal training. and thanks to the million people who messaged me and remembered this such trivial thing though i told you years ago, thanks for all the advice, calls, emails (esp deb!) and thanks jo for the duper long email you must have taken 2oo years to write that (ill reply you real soon!)

i just told deb that i just want to write essays and read good books, told jon muk that i want to take a break year and on further thinking do something drastic like spend 2 months on a desert; and i just told jac i want to live in her storeroom and take care of pudgy for the rest of my life. to anthea maybe ill be your personal secretary, to annabelle, ill help you promote nikki leow to become world-dog seriously, to mc: ill help you download ANYTHING in this world, to hwee: ill be your maid in your nottingham hall dorm and to abc: ill make you a portable tv, to vera: ill plan all your world tours.

thats what i really want to do and say when im in a bad horrible mood! im most probably thinking too much and that's bad because the older you grow the better you can read people and discern situations so yea you kinda know whats coming.