flower power tomorrow!

by 8.45 tomorrow, it will be over.
yes, im talking about Project Work.

Unfortunately, im not rejoicing over that because i for one, perhaps one in a million as well, has enjoyed PW ttm a.k.a to the max. really! It taught me much more than practical skills on the computer or bargaining with aunties to print the WRs, but helped me prioritise things and most importantly, allowed me to deepen my friendship with my pw mates.

I shall pray that we do not become over-nervous tomorrow during OP, but use the adrenaline to our advantage. :) Our assessors will be our friends like how the rest of our classmates are, and most importantly, there will be an extra companion with us, being a source of comfort and peace.

I need You Lord.

All the best to all my classmates, Phoebe and A12 people, Charissa, Beatrice, daniel and eric from S41. yay!

sunny sunday

today was such a good day!
church was great even though it was the earliest ever session.
Father Iggy was talking about how we should make our relationship with God a friendship, and not a franchise. Thats so true, i mean honestly, how difficult is it not to question Him when things go wrong. but yes, we shouldnt interfere in his 'business' of doing things but just place utmost trust in whatever road he paves in front of us. :)

Prayer requests (going out to all my Christian friends ):
My PW Oral Presentation on Tuesday, and prior to that, for my voice to regain full strength :/
Thankew:)

For others:
All my peers taking A'Level Chinese tomorrow! jiayou!:)
All J2s, especially steph, and jon muk!:)

Thanksgiving:
My sister got a scholarship! Though im not really sure what its for. haha.

vjcsb:)

ok im going mad because almost every band person's blog i visit, apparently we are all band-sick. yeah seriously. I think i have to agree with Dafril (furby! haha) on him saying that vjc is really like a Gatsby party. hyper only on certain occasions, and pretty the opposite during normal school days, (of course not if im with the band people or class girls!:)) he's also right on how band is the epitome of fun. hhee oh yea i also koped a photo from his blog taken after the great butterfly concert in HCI.

Spot me!:)

... ok im supposing you've already spotted me haha.

phy is the strongest! she is willing and able (haha) to always piggyback me when im too small to be seen in pictures or when i want to see things from the top. haha.:)

maybe the stars arent blind after all

okay i think this is so random but yea I think this has to be my favourite phrase " the stars must be blind!". I remember laughing so hard when our LYNX vice- cap danced on stage saying that with the super bare costume.
haha! anyway im so proud of everyone! anthea is asst. og head! (anthea im SO excited for you:)), and faizah then pinrui became og head of another. i think im surrounded by really charismatic and super easy-going friends in school im so happy they exist:)
Another thing im really thankful is how fun- foolproof our dear band room can be. at ANY time during ANY day you can count on stepping in, only to be cheered up 'TTM' (to the max), or in as according to daniel and jiawei's definition, Tai Tai Men (charissa and I :/) instead of heading out of school after PW as previous days, i had to lock up today and went into the room. Only then did i realise why on earth had i so much time to emo and write posts like the previous one. haha. anyway, have i also mentioned that the room is so equipped with so many things! any games, including PSPs and laptop, a soccer ball, curtains and a changing room, even mattresses, blankets and pillows and soft toys. first i played monopoly (!! yes, haha) with phy, kash and kaikeng. then I played bridge with the latter two and daryl. Then I moved onto do a stoopid series of things enghwee forced me to which was ultra embarrassing! ok then I played minesweeper with pinrui. after that phy and I nearly burnt our butts while watching the guys play basketball till they were chased away by the Pe teacher because they were not wearing black shorts (!!). Finally we went back and played Sudoku for like 2 hours with a lot alot of people. we teamed up and phy and kaikeng who were on my team (or rather I was on their team because im so slow at the game :/). its super fun when you do it in a huge group and make mistakes and have to erase EVERYTHING sometimes. anyway it was quite funny because so many people were piling on top of each other on the carpet around the small Soduku book and when charissa and jiawei entered the room after their OP prac, they were so shocked and jw even said "wow, you guys have such life man, Sudoku!!" HHA. in a blink, it was nearly 7pm and phew luckily i manageed to lock the room before then. Then kash, phy kai keng enghwee and I went to parkway because kai keng and I wanted to eat beef noodles, but uponreaching, the beef noodles were already sold out! dinner was SO funny because of dear enghwee who was cracking up with so many lame things! I was stricken with a laughing attack that I didnt even notice brown mouse (annabelle!) who was standing infront of me waving until some time after! haha sorry girl! Kai keng was the champion because he was shaking so badly, and nearly couldnt finish his meal! ok after that kash treated me to fried ice cream (because i was broke :( and it was super scary because suddenly this guy stood in front of us and said HI! and even after he walked away he kept pointing at me. ooh. haha. it was also so hot so we went for a mini shopping session at parkway. haha. okay im back home and im blogging now after doing an hour of math. yay. im finishing one chapter soon. haha im going to do well for R!!! yes:))

im quite excited for xmas! we are playing the exchange-xmas gifts thing with our class girls and haha I got an interesting person to buy a present for. lol! cant wait for the many chalets too, band pracs (finally!!!!) the end of chinese As for many, OP for many and this spells more and more and more outings. :) yayy. oh yea, surprisingly, halloween is going to be pretty interesting, though im still not sure if i can make it to Night Safari with hwee ants and Jac on halloween night! :))

:/

thankew everyone for being in the 'cheer up' mode for me today. :)
I think those people i was talking to/ smsing/ msning did effectively cheer me up because none of them said "dont think about it" or "forget about it". Honestly i get quite irritated when they say that because when im complaining about something means its obvious that its getting on my nerves and im not nonchalant about it (which is usually how i am to almost everything around me) so yea. being surprised/ sharing the same reaction as me also helps ALOT. haha ok i admit im demanding towards consolers (if there's such a word). and yes ill only accept words of deep truth ( something which i know is also true) if you're really close to me/ no matter how hard you try, you just dont piss me off. 100 marks goes to those few who actually asked me out to give me a treat. haha, i guess that will be how I chill out after being irritated/ shocked which i was feeling today! anyway i think today ended well. because hwee and i went over to jacpot's (heh!) house then walked and walked just to get bubble tea. we then cabbed back to hwee's and dad fetched me from there. i came home and was still feeling kinda irritated so i actually did like 2 hours of math. haha. doing math while being angry REALLY works for me. gosh. anyway it pays to do math because that kind of smile on my mom's face was just priceless. haha.

and yes! why do guys always have to drink when we have ANY gathering! please it is so terrible when you people get drunk. gosh. and after that you all do weird stuff and make us so irked with painful images etched in our heads. eeeeee haha i hope thats not going to be repeated at the upcoming chalet. !!.

haha ok, finally more comments on my class girls esp during chinese. haha. but, some sidetracking before that.

мə†.†ђë.whọ- says:
i'll go find a grp with hot gal

мə†.†ђë.whọ- says:
u go find one wif hot guys

мə†.†ђë.whọ- says:
means u'll be in my grp

мə†.†ђë.whọ- says:
cos u'll find me

:meiyi:: says:
zomg it should be the other way

::meiyi:: says:
hahahaha

мə†.†ђë.whọ- says:
BU YAO XIU CHI!

мə†.†ђë.whọ- says:
my chinese rocks now

::meiyi:: says:
HAHAHAHHAHA

::meiyi:: says:
yea because you finally went for chinese today right

***main gist

::meiyi:: says:
you know who my class girls are?

::meiyi:: says:
they are quite vocal during chinese i heard

::meiyi:: says:
haha

::meiyi:: says:
like clap for each other when they do well

::meiyi:: says:
lol

мə†.†ђë.whọ- says:
lol..

мə†.†ђë.whọ- says:
ok..

мə†.†ђë.whọ- says:
i hav an idea

мə†.†ђë.whọ- says:
QUITE VOCAL

мə†.†ђë.whọ- says:
is not the term to describe them

мə†.†ђë.whọ- says:
THEY ARE MAD

hehe hwee, jacpot, anthea, brown mouse, vera and mc! tsk tsk.
Good luck for chinese on MONDAY sweeties:) <3

when we are happy

Friday
when we are happy (happier than usual), we go to Astons after school for lunch. I eat steak and laugh at St. John's (!!). We also laugh at 'zouk' and take pictures. Then we go to hwee's to watch movies. sisterhood of the travelling pants was nice! I cry at the sad parts even though I am secretly happy by the end of it. I dont mind taking long bus rides home after that because im not tired or busy. I watch 'history boys' at home and start missing UK again! thanks hwee for lending me the vcd though!

Saturday
when we are happy, the group of us go out and eat pepper lunch the next day. we all eat the same thing because the rest gives jaclyn a diarrhoea! we bump into brown mouse with her hockey girls too! we then catch a drink and puff at coffee bean while discussing pw. we are happy doing it because it promises a happy future for us. i bump into adelyn too. after discussing, I meet mum to go shopping for her shoes and buy the heel-grip for my sneakers. we were supposed to go to Jones Grocer but i guess that will have to be next week!

when I am happy, I thank Him for His grace is sufficient!
enjoy your holidays (besides loads of pw and cca) everyone!:)

:)

today has been a really good day.
i sincerely thank one and all. haha, and no its not my birthday=D

The Past

Its good to look back upon your past sometimes,

1) I really miss and appreciate my ex- scgs teachers. I guess it was because of them I love sc alot. Almost all my female teachers were extremely motherly, those who bothered about you not because they had to, but because they cared to. They cared to scold you for nearly an hour because you said "shit", cared to call you from far away because your shoelaces were untied.
2) I miss the mee-pok man. Food plays a large part in my life, and i really miss the mee pok i dash for everyday at 10.30am (along with shan and lorraine):) i remember how i dreaded taking the detour to not step on the grass because i was a preeefect while lorraine and shan will laugh at me gleefully because i would be the slowest.
3) i miss jean, lorraine, shan, lesley, majella, ally, becky, camille, chiawen, qian, pau, chara, eunice and jill alot!
4) I miss those talk about kim-gekness, sitting properly at the porch and donning our uniforms appropriately. I feel im super not kim-geky now, which is sad considering how much our principal always used to drill it into our heads.
5) i miss assemblies, i miss meetings haha i miss so many things!

<3 scgs:)

:)

its amazing how after my last post, everything just started picking up:)
realised that i have just so many role models around me. the last few days have been spent mostly with my PW group and I daresay it has been really fun! One thing ill really miss abt PW is working with jac and hwee:) you are both awesome guys:) even though we are all falling sick now with the same sickness... sore throat and fever, we shall still press on!:) we had the full day off from school today! so jac and i bought lunch from pp then headed to hwee's place for more PW. haha jac, we were super aunties to the max! haha:) however while i was doing my part of WR halfway, i seriously couldnt take it and fell asleep. i ended up monopolizing hwee's bed for abt an hour according to jac, haha!
after we were done, dad fetched me and we had dinner. its been a long time since i had the dinner just with him. haha. anyway, im running stan chart! haha im taking over ll's place! yippee so ill be running with jeanie woonie:) i miss you!=D
just read jean's post on the sc friendships, i really agree with her and it was rather touching;)

i love friends<3 haha.

the more you do, the more you can do

CDEEE to DDDES. hmmmph!

my head's pounding now and i just feel like going straight to bed, but i still have a gazillion things to do. its times like this when you wish you could disappear from the world just for a few minutes and chillout. i admit, i haven't been able to laugh genuinely since monday till today because things are absolutely trying and dreadful. In essence, not really happy, like how I usually am you know! I mean im still laughing at the really funny things my lovely friends do and roared at vera's Mr. Sinister impersonation with sound effects and all but i just feel so unsettled! with the little precious time i had with ______ today, (name not revealed so as not to exclude you!:)) we only had time for a one-way thing, i mean i was advicing and consoling like I was the pro of such situations, but honestly i wanted to say SO many things if I hadn't to tear myself away! im not happy not only because of my own pek- ciekness but also because of so many sad things happening to other people! scholars sent home because of unsatisfactory results, people losing scholarships (!!). Almost everyone is also telling me to go ask (beg) for 1 more mark (haha) so that i can pass math and skip doing the R-paper in January. Honestly, i never thought of doing that and am not. That's just because I know i deserve it! lets not talk about attendance during lectures moreover spiritual attendance during tutorials, but also the empty/lost tutorial questions and blank promo practices! What you reap is indeed what you sow in this case. But those who aren't reaping what they have sown seriously top the tragic list! I appeal to you to review your studying technique or maybe get some help..., more help! In my case, im already truly grateful for such a mark that will make me "aiyah! if only i studied one more topic, then can pass sia!" times infinity! haha.

I guess only then, will i force myself to clear up all the crap from jan 2007 and work on it till, i promise, im going to get at least a B for math R - paper. daring, but yes! its a promise eh! Im really grateful for so many pillars of strength in example if not in words and mere friendships - 1) my class! boys and girls! individually you are all really nice and I appreciate it! 2) my family! my dad for taking extra effort to pick me up from school today:) sister for reminding me: the more you do, the more you can do. 3) band-its! honestly, ill lead a rather sad life if not for all of you! ok this can go into a super long rant.. so i shall save it for next year's farewell post or something :( 4) Daddy God. :) ' My grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness' - 2 Cor 12:9. I broke into tears just immersing myself in the beauty of His words and this is my sure fave. He is just so powerful and so amazing! Praise God! Because of this sure pillar of strength, I am able to apparently inspire some friends who are sad over B when they wanted an A, some who got 75 but really pek-ciek because knew they could get 89 etc. without shooting myself and wallowing in self-pity when contrasting to my own!

This post goes out to you all, lets not feel down/ dissatisfied anymore! Lets get into the groove! By the way, im rooting for the full day this friday too Mr. Principal!:)

-

there's really so many things to do after promos but i dont know where to start.
results are just -_- please give me a break. ok la ok la, i shall not work during the holidays to earn extra cash. i shall work on math ok? My mood's really horrible now, yes meiyi does have horrible moods! except she doesnt really show!

Anyway I shall use this excuse to say this now, yes. If my status is 'busy' on MSN, i expect you to know that im really busy a.k.a if i want to talk to you, I will open a convo. You dont open a convo, without asking if im really busy or not, and start telling me all abt monday to sunday. ok please, thats what the statuses are for? if i say im 'away' then just assume im not lying and i am watching tv or something, dont start talking and when i answer, you start asking if im avoiding you. hello? finally, if im appearing offline and im talking to you, please dont ask why.

ok i got this part off. i appreciate your understanding.
***
anyway i was kinda ranting to jon muk abt school life and this part was really funny. meanie! lol.


[Jon]- i dun play against any particular team, i play against the idea of losing says:
ahha

[Jon]- i dun play against any particular team, i play against the idea of losing says:
eh girls can get quite annoying when they gossip ok

[Jon]- i dun play against any particular team, i play against the idea of losing says:
and WHINE

[Jon]- i dun play against any particular team, i play against the idea of losing says:
ok if ure like hot and ure whining, like u noe URE A HOTTIE

[Jon]- i dun play against any particular team, i play against the idea of losing says:
then its ok la

[Jon]- i dun play against any particular team, i play against the idea of losing says:
but if ure like damn ugly and still whine so much

[Jon]- i dun play against any particular team, i play against the idea of losing says:
wah

[Jon]- i dun play against any particular team, i play against the idea of losing says:
takboleh tahan

::meiyi:: says:
HAHA zomg you damn bad!!!

okay i feel so bitchy and evil now. but seriously!

i love vj but i really dont love lessons for now.because its just getting back results and the whole world's engrossed in thinking about h3s and applying for UCL / Oxbridge or whatever. sheesh. the j2s are gone and everything's on WR and OP. well, im looking forwarding to livead tmr morning for nssn and sleepover at jac's even though its for pw:) haha.

!!

openhouse was wicked funn.:)
BUT i just missed the stan chart signing up. registration's closed.
no!!!! sry jeann and lorrainee:(

Cycling and Me.

i feel like an injured bird now. a fatigue but happy one :)
yesterday was madness. a secretly self-planned 2 hour cycling episode turned out to be a FIVE hour cycling trip from one end of east coast to the other end (4.5km), to Changi Airport (10km) then Changi Beach (14km) and finally Changi Village (a gazillion km).

the very FIRST time i learnt cycling (which was during a bbq at east coast), i immediately went night cycling. Jabbing through bushes and plunging down slopes never travelled before. I fell so many times, with a shriek scream/ cry preceding each of them. yesterday, on my 4th attempt cycling, we decided to venture further- past cut out bicycle paths, till walkways and even roads. at 4 plus we were only on half of journey to our final destination (changi village) and I was really doubtful I'd make it there and back to our start point by 7pm. benedict kept asking me if i wanted to turn back then because firstly, strength was a challenge, secondly by sunset those roads we travelled would be completely dark as there were no street lamps. Just go, just go! I kept saying to myself (and benedict). I kept losing my balance suddenly and not being able to steer straight partially due to fatigue and due to fear. I remember fearing those big drains at the side and imagining what would happen to me if i didnt dodge in time. Amazingly, everytime I harboured the latter thoughts, there would be no doubt I would end that stretch with a scream and being on the brink of tears. everytime i imagined my bike getting stuck in those fearful big drains, the bike handles would head towards those monsters. On the other hand, if i didnt think anything of them at all, I would be on top of them, smoothly gliding through the rough patches and even winning over those dreadful 'tukus' ( big fruits which make you fly from your bike if you dont grab your bike hard enough). it sounds dramatic but at certain points, i seriously stopped halfway while going upslope because my thighs had ZERO energy bars left - and so, not being able to take a cab back because someone would be burdened with my bike, i prayed. I prayed for sustenance and perseverance, i prayed for everything i was lacking in. This wasnt meant to be a testimony... but i realise almost everytime i blog it turns out to be one! He never leaves us and never allows a space between us and Him like how that margin always widens among human beings...truly He is amazing. On top of this, i learnt so much about myself. Full of self-doubt I am, and a vast potential of rather unpleasant imagination. Even as a child, when my mum attempted to teach me swimming, i would just sit at the side, convinced there were either sharks i wouldnt be able to escape, or convinced that i would drown.

Besides biking, there's math. I got a really good trashing out from dear Lorraine yester-yesterday while talking to her on my way to ecp. she was really shocked when she heard how i was struggling with math now and she was right how i was influenced from the arts fac mentality. After hearing that and pondering upon its truth, i really wanted to shoot myself. Whats wrong with me! I mean, after all the papers, math is undoubtedly going to be my worst judging from how much i even attempted. And i surely wont forgive myself once i get my paper back because lorraine's words will ringg in my head. Im glad im regretting now at least, because im not going to regret next year. too early to make a new year resolution ahh but heck 1) im going for ALL math lectures. 2) im going for ALL econs lectures. yeay.

OK, guess I need to do some serious thinking huh. just read lesley and bev's blog. they are still as sweet as ever and they make me miss SC so much now! just read how bev says how her portfolio is intact with so many dance/ drama programmes she has to do, and then how she just needs to focus on her results for now. Then i started thinking of myself - OH NO! seriously. haha. ok, i need to be more aware, more focused, more goal-orientated. C'mon! hha.

the next thing i really wanted to say, was the revival of meiyi moments!
haha was cycling halfway ytd when xianyong was on the opposite side and was blading. i didnt see him but he suddenly shouted "meiyi moments"!
so many besides the a12 lit trippers who are ultra familiar with this term (haha,) still asking what it means! hha.

Top funny convo:

daniel: where are you!
me: here, under a coconut tree!
daniel: which coconut tree sia! you not scared coconut drop on your head ah!
me: oh yea. ok where are you? raise your hand NOW.
daniel raises his hand*
me: i see you i see you!
daniel: aah a group of people just walked past and thought i was funny la, suddenly raise hand!
me: yay haha!

***after a few minutes

me: ay, where's your bike?
daniel: i dont have a bike?
me: huh, but i thought all the vs guys (in band)had a bike!
daniel: ... im not from VS!
me: oh yea!.. heh.

:)