the more you do, the more you can do
CDEEE to DDDES. hmmmph!
my head's pounding now and i just feel like going straight to bed, but i still have a gazillion things to do. its times like this when you wish you could disappear from the world just for a few minutes and chillout. i admit, i haven't been able to laugh genuinely since monday till today because things are absolutely trying and dreadful. In essence, not really happy, like how I usually am you know! I mean im still laughing at the really funny things my lovely friends do and roared at vera's Mr. Sinister impersonation with sound effects and all but i just feel so unsettled! with the little precious time i had with ______ today, (name not revealed so as not to exclude you!:)) we only had time for a one-way thing, i mean i was advicing and consoling like I was the pro of such situations, but honestly i wanted to say SO many things if I hadn't to tear myself away! im not happy not only because of my own pek- ciekness but also because of so many sad things happening to other people! scholars sent home because of unsatisfactory results, people losing scholarships (!!). Almost everyone is also telling me to go ask (beg) for 1 more mark (haha) so that i can pass math and skip doing the R-paper in January. Honestly, i never thought of doing that and am not. That's just because I know i deserve it! lets not talk about attendance during lectures moreover spiritual attendance during tutorials, but also the empty/lost tutorial questions and blank promo practices! What you reap is indeed what you sow in this case. But those who aren't reaping what they have sown seriously top the tragic list! I appeal to you to review your studying technique or maybe get some help..., more help! In my case, im already truly grateful for such a mark that will make me "aiyah! if only i studied one more topic, then can pass sia!" times infinity! haha.
I guess only then, will i force myself to clear up all the crap from jan 2007 and work on it till, i promise, im going to get at least a B for math R - paper. daring, but yes! its a promise eh! Im really grateful for so many pillars of strength in example if not in words and mere friendships - 1) my class! boys and girls! individually you are all really nice and I appreciate it! 2) my family! my dad for taking extra effort to pick me up from school today:) sister for reminding me: the more you do, the more you can do. 3) band-its! honestly, ill lead a rather sad life if not for all of you! ok this can go into a super long rant.. so i shall save it for next year's farewell post or something :( 4) Daddy God. :) ' My grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness' - 2 Cor 12:9. I broke into tears just immersing myself in the beauty of His words and this is my sure fave. He is just so powerful and so amazing! Praise God! Because of this sure pillar of strength, I am able to apparently inspire some friends who are sad over B when they wanted an A, some who got 75 but really pek-ciek because knew they could get 89 etc. without shooting myself and wallowing in self-pity when contrasting to my own!
This post goes out to you all, lets not feel down/ dissatisfied anymore! Lets get into the groove! By the way, im rooting for the full day this friday too Mr. Principal!:)
