Your light Will shine
You know you have days where you sing praises of worship and suddenly you just become so engaged in the envelope of God's love which just floods you? It floods your heart and soon you feel you arent even standing on solid ground. Everything becomes so surreal and the friends you are amidst dont really seem to be there anymore, its into another world, or what I would call transcendance.
Transcendance doesn't come cheap. You could feed on booze to experience another kind of transcendance i guess. Thats the cheapest it can get. To experience the transcendance of real meaning, one including serene calmness comes from something not money can buy, not the maximum SAT scores you can get, not shopping to make you happy, not manicures and not pedicures, not the latest movies, nor the sleekest Ipods you can ever find. None of those. In fact if you want to think of a reason, you can articulate it for the world yet not understand it. You have got to experience it.
This experience (or so in my narrow perspective of life these 18 years) comes from simply opening your heart and mind to Him, whether or not we are singing in church or simply praying for a friend. Believe it or not, my second last experience at this 'transcendance' was a mighty 2 years ago, with my last experience during one of the rehearsals for Dona Nobis Pacem (Grant us Peace) for our Majestia XXIII. I assure you i heard a chorale singing the hymn, and experienced a wider space so much more than where i was. I would blink my ears if i could to check if i was hearing correctly, i mean maybe it was just the fantastic harmony being supernaturally in tune, but no it was something more than that. I looked around to check if others were similarly taken in by the peculiar event, but no, everyone seemed perfectly as they were... my soul fed then and even though standing next to so many, I knew none of them would see my tears or my surge of gratefulness. Amazingly, its just between You and Him.
We are like a kite, and He is holding the string from anywhere below where we are flying. We may be tangible miles apart yet we are intangibly attached. The trick is making this intangiblity tangible in everyway. Offhand i can count so many friends who have been discouraged by this invisibility and i cant say ive never been through that. But if you call yourself happy with just that amount of things you have, seemingly happy I would say. I really crinch at the thought!
If you are a Christian visitor here and you can afford some time, or even if you arent a Christian and would like to, just take some minutes off to listen to my dear favourite evergreen blog-song which should have been playing, replay it if need be and think through all the lyrics. Ill welcome you everyday, everytime you feel weak yet you need strength, everytime you feel life isnt just how it was anymore.
This is how you stay happy my dear. :)
And remember, we are all still trying :)
