ok its 2am and i should really go and sleep!

I just wonder why I cant give up sometimes, why can't i just be slack and give up for a while. Why do I always put myself through so much stress, forcing myself to the limits and challenging my mental so much, why why why?

Why can't I just relax for once,

Because im honestly so tired, I just want to give up sometimes, just for a short while, at least.