It's hard sometimes, waking up to a world you weren't used to for as long as you were content with. Makes it even worse that you started the whole thing yourself so the only thing you really got to blame is, yourself.
But looking on the bright side, the pain always comes from a thorough healing process, and I think its best to reflect on your mistakes and how you could step away from that, then of course, move on.
Im skipping training today, because I've been instructed to let my calf sprain and toe sprain rest. Road race in 8 days, so not in shape:(
Im going to finish my Paper 1 first, go for a longgg easy run to West Coast Park then go for hpb meeting! Collating photos for Char's party tmr too!
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OK plan failed, managed to go for an easy run with baldwin for the win, butttt other than that:( Master's ice cream supper and impromptu C blk performance kinda took my mind off concentration for Paper 1 ( I managed to get my motive and thesis though:)) and then it was hpb meeting... havent collated photos oh no.
gotta wake up in 4 hours time for KR Charity run, then heading to meet the army boys for Project CHARISSA!:D
not going for nussu bash tmr or MUSE next week..:( have fun peeps:(((
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Im really praying I manage to keep my work in check by end of next next week... havent started on Week 1 readings for 3 modules. gosh. And its not helping I have such a conscience that makes me confess during tutorials that I havent touched the readings. I mean honesty is the best policy but there goes my tutorial participation marks! =(
Next Saturday I have BOTH CHINGAY AND CNY STEAMBOAT with the girls. Haven't met the girls for eons, but how to give any more excuses for Chingay! oh no.
Sunday is gone too, so next week is killer week k.
COME ON MEIYI GET YOUR ACT TGT, PRIORITISE PLEASEEEEE.
It's 5.24am. Im having second thoughts about even sleeping tonight, because I have a harder time waking up and feeling worse if I slept. oh well.
What a week it has been, really. Academically and everything else.
Things have become so overwhelming that I dont even sms anymore, did you know that? My phone is just a medium of urgent contacting, usually contacting people I need to contact, for meetings or responding to people... It's not on purpose its just that I dont remember to sms back, or take at least a day to do that. Usually these smses need some thought and I put off replying because at the time I read the message, im usually not in the state of mind to reply coherently. For once, I feel that even two diaries (yes I have two diaries, not forget a couple of online calendars) can't even help my saturated brain.
I dread opening my official emails, because I know almost every one needs a reply back.
And I dread looking at my timetable to find a free slot, even for lunch with people, because I probably can't find one.
"Book me first book me first", shouts all the dates this month and next month.
Hurhur.
Almost.can't.breathe.
Thanks to those who understand, even though you probably think this isn't too good, yet you know you can't convince me otherwise yet.
Out of everything i miss about the past, I miss this most.
How long is it going to take for me to accept my new past,
I want to be happy, again, soon.
1st time after 1 sem in KR, entering iheartkr.blogspot.com...
Read through a few posts and found this, much to my surprise...
Ive got something addressed to me, without even knowing! yay:D
will miss ya jiayun..:(
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
To: C-Blk 4th floor
To me, college without Kent Ridge would be like a much more expensive high school education with a lot more travelling to be done.
I made a whole bunch of great friends here and thoroughly enjoyed freedom and independence. It’s been real great, yes.
With every step of the way, there was little difficulty easing into the unfamiliar university environment. People were always around to make sure I was ok, that I’d fit in naturally like a missing piece of the jigsaw, that everything suited me to the tee. And the closest group of people I have in KR is my neighbours :) It feels really awesome whenever I return to my room and the doors beside mine are all open, neighbours coming out just to say “Hi, how’s your day?”. And somehow in the middle of many nights, they just comfortably, conveniently plonk themselves on my bed for absolutely no reason, yet it always ends with nice cosy conversations. We’ll go out for jogs together at 9pm. Post-its overflowing with encouragements stuck everywhere. Sharing a supper meal to make sure we don’t actually consume too much unneeded calories. Squeezing into a single room so that we can eat our order-in lunches together on a rainy afternoon. Celebrate birthdays. Collect laundry together.
My neighbours are the people who woke me up at 8:20am when I slammed my alarm on a morning I had a 9am examination. They are the ones who bought me liang-cha and offered all sorts of throat-soothing-edibles when I had a cough. And for who they are, I love them. ♥
The C-herubs – they keep me safe and they keep me sane.
-jy.
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Im amazed at myself, and how I have been drawn into this whole thing. So typical of me la, really.
Anyway,i just got back from Vera's room, after htht-ing with her and ABC, abc's staying over today:D
Anyway I've been telling people nowadays I need to do 10 happy things before I do one thing 1 thing like studying.:( I feel quite bad, because the only thing I've been conscientiously doing is the module that I like, which is the writing mod in USP. Besides that, I've been dozing off in the rest of the lectures. I'm so sleepy and I find it boring... Bad student. :(
Im going to try harder though.
Today I went for an easy run to run off the lactic acid, and it was really effective. Feel so much better now, before that it felt that like I was dragging lead along.
Going to email the girls now and then head to bed.:D
late nights movies nachos sea sports commsball parents brothers sisters grandparents fish & co manhattan pollock calamari calls textmessages morningmessages wakeupcalls forcedsleep running gyming bubbletea friends moviepreviews matchmaking taxis mrt music craft letters cards pictures smiles tears celebrations dreams past present future hopes dashed uncertainty thebest
I will miss how you always were the best to me, how I was always thankful of that.
I will miss how ideal we were, in our values and what we wanted.
I will miss how we dreamt of how beautiful our future would be.
We agreed it was a product of circumstances, and not because of anything else.
Right now, I still like you a lot and if you asked me today, I would still say Yes.
But I stopped myself now because I knew if it was any later, it would hurt even more.
Time to move on, and, better luck next time.
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It is the end of one of the craziest weeks I've ever had in my life...
I'm still having mixed emotions, yet I know its for the best. Sometimes you just know, and you dont feel the need to explain to anyone.
Anyhow, I have been really caught up with so many things, I hardly have time to think much! Saturday was awesome, spent the morning doing smu duty, before heading down to telok blangah hill park with the crossers for mel's farewell. Went to vivo for dinner and dex ee ghim tricia and I watched the sky and the stars! It was such a nice feeling, and htht-ed abit with dex, made me feel somewhat better:D Then some of us watched Invictus, got a lift home from Eric and by the time i knocked out it was almost 5am!
That explains my washed out look today. But it was still ok, although I cant do any work, because im just so so tired. Just got back from Tiong Bahru with Jairus, Sher and her friend Atria visiting from Penang. Good food and good company:D
Tomorrow it's going to be so busy. Lessons, training, Chingay fitting then Chingay. Wont be joining the girls for NY I love you although i'd love to! :x
And yes, have i told you about how interesting my writing module is? Im doing this topic on clothing and identities and my prof is most engaging. Its like watching tv! Comparable to korean drama. Feel so thankful I like what im studying. It helps so much. :D
It's 9.45am, im about to cross the road to biz library, gonna focus hard on this two very cheem readings for writing module later. it's really interesting though.
Woke up early and had my very first proper hall meal with Gladys and Clement. It was so nice catching up and advising and encouraging each other for the coming year.
I have till 2.30pm to study, after that its WMYC Meeting (the 4th this week gosh), followed by writing mod till 6pm, then training till 8 plus.
I'm off to a good start, going to get CAP 4.6 this semester. :D
And i really aspire to sleep by 12.45am every night (when there are no meetings on), so that I dont get eyebags back and illnesses etc.
Met my mum at Ghim Moh for brunch yesterday, it was so nice updating her about my first week of school. Mum = best friend!
Alright, gotta scoot.
Have a good day everyone:D
