semi-topsy turvy

oh no, things arent going so fine for now.
work's definitely piling, and the change is that - that doesnt really matter so much to me anymore. by the time i reach home everyday, my brain feels SO tired, i end up sleeping so early. my earliest as yet : 8.45pm. which busy person sleeps for 10 hours and wakes up still fretting about not having enough time! furthermore, i dont even hear the alarm in the morning to wake me up earlier to do SOME work. there's no excuse, its just me. im so totally unmotivated and lazy in any other aspects besides band for now, i think there's a bigg bigg problem with me. i couldnt even make it in time for prayer session on wednesday. dangg.

and YOU! im so so so sorry I've been neglecting you so much this past week and even since 2 weeks ago. im so sorry. i guess nothing really gives me the excuse to push you into the corner just like that, to ignore you when you try to find out whats wrong, and just throw you away when things aren't fine and dandy. I just hope you know me well enough, to stay the way you are, and patiently wait for me. I'll be back SOON. i promise :)

yesterday's exchange at hwachong was an utter disaster. I swear I wanted to kill myself by the end of it. when we stood up to take a bow at the end of it, i caught dafril's eye and it was that kind of thank-goodness-its-not-the-syf look. gosh. i think this was a wake up call to make sure we all wouldnt screw up as such on the 11th of May. after I executed that air-choke during Safari, i seriously wanted to shoot myself in the head. I was so utterly disappointed! well, ill take revenge on that air-choke soon enough.!