I have been feeling very upbeat for some time, think its because I've been getting sufficient rest, or at least when i dont, im doing things I enjoy, like catching up with people over supper, watching movies or films, camps like swoc. During the day, if im not doing WMYC stuff (which has been a great experience in USP), or working (earning money yay), or training (improving fitness), im seeing friends and going out catching worldcup matches, having a drink or two. Or best still, having relatively more time at home, and spending quality time with my Mum and Dad. Also, I finally get time to organise outings for people, which is great cos i get to make the call on who's invited hahaha tsk tsk. but yea, basically being a more proactive friend, something I miss being, being so caught up during school term and seeming to be always on the receiving end.


During this holidays, I've been out of the house for a substantial amount of time, with school and all (above-mentioned) but my Dad never fails to buy my favourite breakfast from the nearby market everyday. This is despite me perhaps not even waking up for it, as I'm nocturnal some days. He also loves it when I sleep in, and creeps in to give me pocket money, because he knows I dont get enough sleep, although sometimes it becomes horrible when he quarrels with my mum when she wakes me up, cos yup she doesn't really like the idea of a nocturnal life in our house. He also never fails to catch at least half an hour of soccer matches with me during those few times I catch the match at home. Basically, my dad goes out of the way to show that he loves me and for that, I never want him to fetch me from the mrt station (unless im really tired) or want extra cash from him or want anything more that he already gives. He's getting on with age too and I dont want to expedite that! haha.

Even though its super hard shuffling between both of them, and with my sis overseas we dont really have each other that much anymore, but I guess this has helped me alot in life. Being independent to me, is alot more than just washing my own clothes, settling my own meals and making my own decistions (actually alot of this, I realise, my Mum still does haha) but its so much more than that... There was once, my dad was furious with my mum for waking me up -- She woke me up at 8am cos I had promised my dad the previous day i would follow him to HDB hub before he went to work. But cos SMOO krubbing was the day before I only slept at 6am, I was probably still in deep sleep then. So my dad wanted to let me continue sleeping, but yup cos i'd already promised, and of course because clubbing should never be a valid excuse for skipping other more important things, my mum was helping me keep my promise. So, to appease the both of them, I got up, and got ready super fast, and had to put on a front that I was ultra awake and even hungry (totally not because my tummy was actually pretty uncomfortable from the alcohol the previous night), because breakfast is a norm with my dad on weekday mornings. So yea I kinda appeased Dad by showing that you know, waking up early was really ok for me! So dad was happy, and well I think my mum was proud of me, for having mental and physical resilience hahah.

I was just thinking today, despite the challenges God has given me these past few years, I think I'm ultra-blessed, because I have such loving parents, despite still having a relatively dysfunctional family, I still thank God for giving me a Dad and a Mum, well even if they can't coexist together. Mum was just telling me that day that they might be filing for separation by the end of the next 3 years, (although this goes together with having to sell our house now) and I guess I'm mature enough to let her know that I support her decision whatever it may be, and that I'd still love her and my Dad as much as I've always.

Staying at home has been so very important to me, and hall life on a everyday basis during school term has re-emphasized that.

Also, I think I'm very blessed, cos God has been such a constant for me. In fact, He has been the only constant in my life. I like to keep Him with me all the time, although I know I dont show it all the time (forgetting to say Grace and sometimes my nightly prayers). I just pray that He reads my heart all the time, and help me by always giving me good intentions and to be a good person, someone in His likeness, which is not easy, because I believe that it is important to stay relevant in today's world, that means dealing with things like clubbing (often a no-no to many pious Christians) and hanging out with friends who might be not be as good influences (many smokers sigh), whilst not losing my own values.

Lastly I guess I'm lucky because I always have good friends, who read my sincerity with their own. Sincere friends are the most important to me, even if we might not meet up constantly. I guess this has to be one of the most important values I appreciate in friends. I'll accept all your vices just as long as you are sincere and honest with me. :):):) awwww. haha.

Alright, this should be a pretty comprehensive update.
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Till the next time, cheers!
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