Its almost ridiculous how much i miss VJ, like seriously i think outsiders (non-patriotic Vj people) will think I just cant get over it. Or rather we cant get over it.

University life is really tough you know, im sure if its just Singapore or something, but everyday is just so demanding, and the frikin bell curve, class participation, having to print and do everything yourself, etc. I mean I think im quite happy with my results, but it pains me to see others be so upset because their efforts didn't pay off, like what did they do to deserve such a bad unhappy thing!:(

Emo-ing in hall now, didnt go back this weekend because my whole family is like overseas and hall is so quiet on weekends im so not used to it:(

Celebrated Anthea's birthday today though, the photos cheered me up:)

The uncertainty of everyday is almost a wonder in itself. How can every single day be so different? How can one day suddenly change someone's mindset and affect relationships so much, how does it have the power to alter life's events, just how powerful is one single day?

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I went for a lone long run to West Coast today and felt so good, haven't had much time to go almost anywhere on my own for a long time and the space was much appreciated.

"The body does not want you to do this. As you run, it tells you to stop but the mind must be strong. You always go too for your body. You must handle the pain with determination..It's not age, not diet. It is the WILL TO SUCCEED".

RUN ON.
thank you Vera, Jairus and Baldwin today :D

Bullet trains

okay, after this weekend is up, really time to settle down and get cracking, for the final exams. Quote Dudley's friend "If i don't mug, I will die."

So true.

and i forgot to say PINK AND BLUE IS SO HOT here in C block OH NO, pleaseee spareeee meeee.

Warning 1) to me:

4k: "don't feel left out (cos they started ytd already), no one will be left out in this!! *evil laughter*"

Warning 2):

Mathew:

"haha.. seriously.. u better be more careful cos ur door latch broke (HOW DID THEY KNOW THIS OMY)!
&
"haha,please be careful tonight, dont leave ur wallet and matric card lyin around
or hp
today i got some msg form janice, sayin please date me please
hahah".

HAHAHA. FUN, BUT OHHH NOOO.

:D

its friday:)

E-learning week comes to a close and a new (equally) hectic week starts again. Right now, its past the initial uncertain stage,where you're not sure what to do, or exactly how or well your best is. Im more or less pretty settled in, regardless of whether I have sufficient points to stay or not for next year im not that concerned, what's most important is that I join the things I have a genuine interest for/ dont clash with my other committments (like my family holiday in Dec CANT WAIT!) , and they must be so important until im even willing to give up part of my academics for it if i had to (its impossible not to do so, trust me).

WYMC under USP is also an exciting prospect for me next year, and i just hope I live up to everyone's expectations...have been meeting up almost either with Elvis or with the entire board of committee heads.. this plus project meetings and the usual cross trainings have occupied my elearning week quite abit!

Meanwhile, managed to spend some time with the girls; sea-sports VJC people heheh jessie, louis, li ying, sam, sid, hansel, jordan,annabelle and also met up with some outside people. It was heartwarming and i'll never forget how comfortable I am with these people, no holds barred, no need to do things for the sake of doing things...you get what I mean.

Freshie Supper was yummy too and though we spent nearly 3 hours in the kitchen, I managed to nap for an hour before supper so was pretty much more refreshed! some photos plus some from MAF (Mid-autumn festival) celebration last week too! (click on image to view enlarged collage)


Besides many meetings, I think work's going pretty okay, although I need to play abit of catch up over the weekend, as well as remain consistent for next week's syllabus.

My sister is coming back to Singapore this weekend, cant wait to spend time with my dear sister:D

Have a great weekend YOU:D

I haven't

I won't say I have it any easier than my peers in other universities who are constantly stressed by daily presentations and readings, though the number of presentations I have to give in a week are probably much lesser and don't mean much to us ( My EL group's the only one who still does impromptu presentations in tutorials). We've also had a recess week already and this week is E-learning week (of which I do not agree is any less slack than normal school days).

I think my challenge lies in having to deal with everyday which brings something new.
Living with friends during the weekdays and family on the weekdays trains your emotional stamina, because now you can't really throw tantrums anymore (remember the black faces you could give at home just because you were tired?) neither can you chill by eating one whole packet of Ruffles while watching Ellen Degeneres and Oprah Winfrey back to back.

Training your discipline: oh yes this is awesome.
Restraining yourself from unhealthy suppers and reminding yourself to go to bed, although you feel you dont really need it (at night). Studying till you just want to kill yourself cos you know if you dont study now, you TRULY dont have any other time to study hahaha.

Reminding yourself of what's important in life:
Amidst so many events and work and opportunities to do what you like, you finally get a REAL chance to decide what it is that you really want to do.

And having to keep yourself on your toes all the day:
There is never a day I find I can just lie on my bed and fall asleep / take naps anymore...there is just no time...

Though there are many things that have changed, there are also some things that have not.
1) How God is ever so real to me, although I think im spending lesser time with Him now (im working on this). How He comes to me in small instances like some nice stuff people say or good advice they give that keep me on the go always and remind me of how beautiful life is.

2) How my best friends since Primary School, Secondary School and JC and outside friends have not changed.

3) How I still love everyone I love.

Thank God for the many opportunities He has given me and I just blossom in His grace, because His grace is just so sufficient.

Thank you God.

a good good weekend:D

I initially thought I should stay in hall this weekend to mug my ass off and clear the back-log of things before school started, but i decided otherwise when I realised the F1 tickets were left at home!

I never ever regret lugging the tons of files, books (crazy History) and my laptop; not forgetting my shoes and clothes for the weekend home (thanks to vera, i got a lift home!) because home is always so wonderful. Well, i might not have the same discipline as i do studying back in hall (when I be entirely anti-social and close my room door) but its a nice feeling here - like it makes you feel wholesome and happy. Like you know you can just try your best and no matter how you do in exams your family and friends love you. Not that this doesnt happen whether im staying out or in home, but the motivation and the air around feels different. I may not cover much studying at home, but i think the spiritual encouragement can make up for it.

Well anyway, today was awesome moresome because I met my Mum in town after her floral arrangement project for KFC and shopping in town - beat that! I haven't had the chance to do a proper catching up with her since school started and im more then willing to do it over this weekend even though I still have mid-terms I haven't studied for next week:/ After that we headed to Newton Food Centre for dinner and SATAY plus i had to take pictures as part of my Southeast Asian Project.

Today was a good day, and tomorrow's gonna be just as good.
Going for church in the morning and lunch at Parkway ( I MISS YOU PP!) followed by my music class then F1 FTW:) backstreet boys here i come!:)

Recess week was good, I did most of my important stuff and projects, went for trainings and interviews etc, mambooo and met up with my family and friends.

BYE BYE MID TERMS but its okay ill make it somehow, because at least im really happy:)

P.S My Dubai trip has been extended to included Egypt this December.
CANT WAIT CANT WAIT C A N T W A I T!!!

I have a small ambition to step on all continents in the world before im 25.
I think im on my way:)

Im not celebrating Christmas or New Year in Singapore this year though:/

I just got back from training, and I think i'm feeling quite satisfied!
but iIt's back to this pile of never-ending work and numerous projects and essays to do... ah!

But apart from this, it has been two trying weeks, sending many friends off overseas, the many tears and training up my rationalising skills that i'l be able to see them in mere 3 months. What's 3 months in uni come on, its just slightly more than 10 weekly lectures and tutorials, about 30 trainings and a couple of meetings for projects and all. Okay I shouldn't have done that because it has just made 3 months seem pretty long. But oh well :( I was more than willing to put my homework aside because I know I'd regret if I didnt do a great farewell for Hwee and Jill...but I cant help but feel teensy worried now, not sure if I can catch up in time. My last week was atrocious, since class participation requires all the pre-assigned readings to be cleared. Also had to make use of all the time I had (travelling included) to study for my 2 mid term tests (YES I HAVE CLEARED TWO!).

Amidst all these, I think priorities will surface time and time again and with God's wisdom I'll press on, and you too, and my favourite 7 girls too - esp Hwee in UK and those in SMU Stressland...we'll get through this tgt!

Many pictures from send-offs and my last shopping/ exploring stint with Jill at Mustafa; NYNY at Chiawen's and SYHO to make me happy. Ill upload these soon!

When i see you, i run out of words to say

I've just had my first mid-term test in university, how exciting, i actually skipped my whole day of classes just to mug for the test. Thing is, how it has always been with history, you really have to study the W.H.O.L.E thing for every single test/ exam. I mean history is about causes and effect and somehow you feel helpless if you have no clue what happened before eg. 1776 even though if you are just talking about the impact of the eventful year of 1776. Fortunately or unfortunately, its my favourite subject still.

Thing about me is that I get really angry with myself if I dont put in my best. Like you get the stabbing feeling, do you feel that way sometimes? Thats why for A'Levels i made sure i put in my best and after that i knew the results wouldn't really matter (well, of course it did matter a bit) but that part you can't really help right.

I want to carry on with that mentality in university as well - the spirit of doing my best and even if you fail, its not because you failed failed but because its just not meant for you. I want to be an extremist in this way- i want to do everything I can in my own ability as an imperfect human being. I want to aim for Yale for exchange even though I know im going to be equally happy if i go to say Penn State instead. I want to aim for U Penn even though I might not even end up there.

So when things get in my way, I just get the feeling I'm not doing the right thing.

I wonder if it's too late to turn back.

Plus i really hate the feeling of being possibly fake, can't take it when you see the ugly side of things and how you just have to live with it and not do anything about it.

It just culminates within you and you either become numb or you just quit. I'll prefer to quit, this time round.