Changes

07A13 is the best.:)
ahha. anyway, there have been more talk on the upcoming release of O level results, more uncertainty from people, wondering if they did well enough to stay here. On my part, I also share the same uncertainty, because I dont feel too good about it too. However all I can say is that, enjoy our current lives to the fullest man! :) seize the day (as vandaliser #1 carved on my econs lecture table) and just feel as great as you can ok?

Whatever it'll be, Im going to place my entire trust upon Jesus, our Lord who will never forsake us, and pray for the best. Meanwhile, Im going to enjoy my stint here at VJ as much as I can, and do my best to have no regrets at the end of the day. Wherever I head to after our 2 months (or less), or hopefully stay here, Im never ever going to forget the amazing time i've spent here, neither will I ever forget the warmth of the seniors and friends and juniors (IP year 1 students) around me.:)

2 days ago, I was chatting to an ex-classmate, a wonderful friend who wasnt exactly enjoying herself in the institution she was posted to. I was enlightened to the fact the most of my friends who went there were also dreading everyday of school and totally not enjoying any minute of it. I felt quite down for awhile, because I was wondering why such nice people, deserving the best in every way, had to be exposed to such a trying time, when all they really hoped after venturing out of secondary school was to enjoy life in a new way. It was hard for me to say anything worth, because perhaps I havent really experienced what they are currently going through, and I, on the other hand, have been (unfairly) basking in enjoyment everyday.

I had been thinking about it randomly for the past 2 days or so, and yesterday during band practice, during some 'free time', I was just comparing the differences btw my fellow percussionists here at VJ and previously in AC or SC. I started thinking of how many adjustments I have made, or tried to make, during this short period of time, and how i have gained something out of it. It is indeed futile to cling onto the present and the predictable (tet:)), because change IS necessary. I realised that having a great time at such places will naturally cause one to be emotionally attached to it. However, changes are present to cause one to be immuned to the uncertainty/worry/frustration, to help the person to grow, to grow into one who is adaptable, who is flexible and be open to new surroundings. Life cant be a bed of roses, moreover, never a perfect straightcut one at all times, because your life will be so monotonous and the idea of life having no meaning will surface even more frequently. Wont it be better to get use to experiencing change, so that when we eventually have to 'let go' and move on, the wounds wont hurt anymore as they used to? Then we get to stretch our time of enjoyment, rather than wallow in the pain of missing objects and people.:)

Likewise, for my dear friend, you have been experiencing change too, but its undoubtably 10 times harder for you to adjust and adapt to such a new environment, worse off, to find the meaning of being tested in such a situation. However, you have been given the rare privilege of being provided with such a 'real' situation to expose your vulnerabilities in such a situation, and while you may feel that you are stretched to the extreme already, the strength within you as well as the strength thrusted upon you by Him above will be sufficient to maintain you, and make you even stronger than ever before. In the blink of an eye, this trying period will eventually pass, and you would have been 'twisted' to form a super flexible, strong person of character, enabling you to endure more changes ahead, and most probably giving you more joy in an enjoyable circumstance than others would feel, because you would have been to the worst before, therefore you know the standard of the best.:) Therefore, dont feel too sad or down, and dont ever lose yourself (as you mentioned). Dont forget what you were made out to be, dear friend! I will not send you any condolences or give you my pity, but I will feel so glad that my dear friend has been given such an excellent opportunity to grow so much, so much more than you had ever imagined.:))

for myself, after switching from St. Margaret's to SCGS, then initially to ACJC then eventually VJC, and after getting Os, possibly another change again, I feel ready for anything to come (or so i hope), because im going to enjoy my current cca and class to the fullest (!!), but do my best to not become emotionally dependent on it. That was kind of what happened after dropping AC Band, and walking into the uncertainty of getting a cca I really enjoyed here, since cca really plays a big part in my school life..
what im sure of though, is that ill would never be where I currently am, if not for Him. Honestly, I often wonder what on earth I've done to be able to be where I am, for simply being who I am, and for even be given the opportunity to step into my dream school ( since the beginning of 2006).
Indeed, how great are you Lord...