when crazy takes on a new meaning

reverse this whole day please. =(

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the aftermath of NSSN and as usual after something you prepare for something and its over, your heart is heavy and you wake up feeling wasted. ok please tell me you feel the same sometimes. even though we suppered and i reached home feeling really tired and already a little sad, i still could not help but unpack my stuff and read all the letters and notes. This is nearly the best part of every concert i have because what people remember and say always impress me and make me laugh and you end up really happy:)

but i guess after i woke up today and went about life as usual, i realise there's been a hole somewhere somehow because of my lack of participation in other areas of my life. :( i quarrelled badly with someone and i cant take it anymore but stay away, honestly,this time i feel like i just want to not care about it anymore but things dont turn out right the more you do it this way. i havent had a serious argument since quite a long time ago, in fact i cant remember the last time any of this happened. im sincerely hoping time heals. this time round. ive reached the stage i rather not say anything to savage the situation, but trust me its not good. hiyah. i feel ive just hit the rock bottom of a good period of time and honestly, ive been wondering when this time would come.

i guess things have been too good for too long. but pray, pray and pray!