its time for apologies and forgiving

i cant believe im missing the first weekday of school band prac, but my throat and fever is enough to kill 5 people, seriously. I missed school today also bleh but i think im getting much needed rest. :) oh no, im gonna pangsei the "thaipan-tonight" (lol) people again, sorry!

blog hopping and facebooking just makes me feel sad! haha i dont know why but its amazing, sometimes worrying seeing how things between and within people change. 365 days ago, i was still... 365 days on, there has been such a radical change. after chatting with hwee yesterday talking about erhem, i reconsidered my priorities and principles. i mean, why should I compromise on my principles and what i respect just to accomodate someone i dont think deserves it? haha this reminds me so much of the roaring twenties. Daisy and Zelda symbolised everything Gatsby and Fitzgerald despised and hated, yet they wasted their lives pining and yearning for their love, finally realising (or maybe they didnt) their lives were in such a fix, too much of a mess. Fortunately, we are all still young and not too much in that irreversible stage. I know things werent clear and our messages both ways werent too defined, but we both undeniably know what went on, and for now, at least for me, im also very sure of what i want (or what i dont) - you know the answer. its hard to let go, but its made easier when you dream and have faith in something much better ahead. :) the more you know about someone, the better it can get, and quite rarely, the worse it can get. So when that happens, you know even the stars in the sky are trying to tell you something. they are screaming at you not to waste your time, not to compromise, because from their angle, they can see so much more fabulous things waiting for you:)

i said 2008 was going to be great. but thats only if we are willing to put the beautiful 2007 behind us. we will be fools to continue thinking that 2008 will be as great as 2007, at least for me, since many of my favourite seniors are gone =(, we are going to be studying more than ever, and I wont be meeting more and more new people everyday, unlike last year. 2007 was so beautiful its really so hard to believe. oh well 2007 is gone, 2008 bring it on! i cant promise ill handle everything as well, but ill do my best. :)

im bidding farewell to all my dear senior buddies who are enlisting today and tomorrow. im going to miss the random suppers, studying a.k.a starbucking, impromptu cycling to get your worrying off the A levels which was in a month time HAHA. im looking forward to your first pay check though, remember to keep your promise!