Im soo confused by what you are saying -- are you trying make to make me be disillusioned about everything and forget about it, in entirety I mean, or did that really happen? Did it?

Because if it did, I guess its just reflective of our sparring relationship, love-hate, me demanding more from you that I did of myself. If its the latter, I'd apologise, but i wont feel sorry.

That's just the way it is now, like camille says, if we hold on to the past too tight, there can be no future.

It's tough to be man.

On another note: I HAD THE MOST AWESOMEST 20TH BIRTHDAY because I had absolutely zero expectations and I was thrown off everytime a surprise came. HPB's one was the funnest cos they made me do some hulas before I could eat the cake, and the Crossers' ones was sweet. OMG but paiseh because after the 11k run at Macritchie, I had this really bad stomachache, and I was in the toilet long enough for them to get themselves super organised and all hiding behind this platform thing HAHA.

Thank you friends, really. I feel 100 up!:)