its time for apologies and forgiving

i cant believe im missing the first weekday of school band prac, but my throat and fever is enough to kill 5 people, seriously. I missed school today also bleh but i think im getting much needed rest. :) oh no, im gonna pangsei the "thaipan-tonight" (lol) people again, sorry!

blog hopping and facebooking just makes me feel sad! haha i dont know why but its amazing, sometimes worrying seeing how things between and within people change. 365 days ago, i was still... 365 days on, there has been such a radical change. after chatting with hwee yesterday talking about erhem, i reconsidered my priorities and principles. i mean, why should I compromise on my principles and what i respect just to accomodate someone i dont think deserves it? haha this reminds me so much of the roaring twenties. Daisy and Zelda symbolised everything Gatsby and Fitzgerald despised and hated, yet they wasted their lives pining and yearning for their love, finally realising (or maybe they didnt) their lives were in such a fix, too much of a mess. Fortunately, we are all still young and not too much in that irreversible stage. I know things werent clear and our messages both ways werent too defined, but we both undeniably know what went on, and for now, at least for me, im also very sure of what i want (or what i dont) - you know the answer. its hard to let go, but its made easier when you dream and have faith in something much better ahead. :) the more you know about someone, the better it can get, and quite rarely, the worse it can get. So when that happens, you know even the stars in the sky are trying to tell you something. they are screaming at you not to waste your time, not to compromise, because from their angle, they can see so much more fabulous things waiting for you:)

i said 2008 was going to be great. but thats only if we are willing to put the beautiful 2007 behind us. we will be fools to continue thinking that 2008 will be as great as 2007, at least for me, since many of my favourite seniors are gone =(, we are going to be studying more than ever, and I wont be meeting more and more new people everyday, unlike last year. 2007 was so beautiful its really so hard to believe. oh well 2007 is gone, 2008 bring it on! i cant promise ill handle everything as well, but ill do my best. :)

im bidding farewell to all my dear senior buddies who are enlisting today and tomorrow. im going to miss the random suppers, studying a.k.a starbucking, impromptu cycling to get your worrying off the A levels which was in a month time HAHA. im looking forward to your first pay check though, remember to keep your promise!

raindance!

mass dance at suntec was great! if im not wrong i think i had more fun than last year! the more memorable things are me staring at vera and laughing and not being able to talk because if I did we would just be drinking rainwater. it was pouring and there all of us were, some j2s and most j1s, stranded, having nothing else to do but being drenched in rainwater dancing and cheering out lungs out.:) yuxuan and I finally succumbed once to the choo-choo train but it was so dangerous because i was wearing slippers and the floor was so slippery. many band ogls came to join us instead and i can safely say we definitely rocked the place, at least within the 100m perimeter ok! many other random people from other ogs or even ex- VS people came to join in our fun and cheering. another funny thing would be when Mr. Chan came and everyone surrounded him and started cheering "full day, full day full day!" then he was "yea can, tomorrow is sunday!". So we intuitively started chanting "two days two days!" then after that it progressed to "one month one month" and finally it became "no school no school ! ". Ha. then he just smiled and left. !!. after taking photos and ending of with last year's OG cheers, we went off for supper. everyone's voices were really hoarse and horrible. shared ice kachang with xuan and then the j2 table started playing alot of those table games till late.

i felt so sick after that because there was band early in the morning, then daryl's house then the mass dance. not enough sleep plus getting caught in rain = not very good for health.

today all our lessons were cancelled and we only had a lit lesson with Miss Chia. so after that we went to east coast to eat at bk, then we cycled. :) as usual i got injured again and sunburnt. haha.
today joshua asked me about j2 life and everything and he said to enjoy this slack part while it still lasts. actually i really am, there are alot of things i want to make my last, for example, cycling on a school day (i.e no more ponning), prioritising and doing assignments (i mean ALL), start being more hardworking and generally more motivated. I have finally decided what to do with my life. Its either Law or FAAS at NUS, or corporate Law at SMU. Im not going overseas unless i cant make it locally, but ill try and go for more overseas attachments etc. in Europe. yes:) the whole group of us missed the deadline for signing up for SATS so i guess ill be doing it either in May or June. Still cant decide which is better.

New York trip has been confirmed - 21st to 29th March. I hope it snows, like it surprisingly did last year!that would be a nice treat. but then again, i cant really take really cold weather. i end up being really quiet because im praying badly for the sun. Im a sun person, cant deny that. we will be going after CTs march hols, which means we will be missing school for those few days. as much as im really excited for the coming year because of so many things i have to do, it in itself is enough for worry. so much planning and organising, work which cannot be neglected. but at the same time i want to live as i did in 2007 - still being around friends and doing things i think is meaningful. Im just praying things will come one step at a time and we will all be fine at the end of the day because what doesn't kill us, just makes us stronger. :)

Have a good week ahead everyone:)

vj's favourite 6 songs

ive been crashing orientation like free.
mass dances are just hyper and so so so good.
yesterday (Day 2) was my favourite day because everyone still had their voices intact (only a little husky) and all the people around me were so fun and nice to dance with. Demo-ing neutron and tribal were ok because they are pretty easy. I want you was just fun la although we couldnt do it properly. I thought submerging myself between ogls like daniel and ziyang would help haha but i guess it stumps everyone. well, we learnt it today and yay my feet are finally moving to the beat of those 6 songs. :) Ralphiel was great with daniel, benedict, enghwee and phoebe:) Igor was great with anthea, ziyang, camille, furby etc. :) Tomorrow evening shall be the favourite mass dance at suntec city 7pm, so if you see many crazy people in vj shirt dashing here and there, you know why.:)

this morning we played a successful prank on our junior class:) andre bluffed as a year 1 for as long as we could take it and they bought it! haha thank goodness his cat high juniors and his childhood friend in the same class went along with it. Aaaaaaaa.........ONETHREE! (with hand action). hahah this was used to bluff junior class that we were some cheering fanatics! they were so enthusiastic when we asked them to join us also haha!

after that we had no lessons because the teachers had a special meeting or something like that so the few of us were stranded with nothing to do. haha. talked to hwee about something which has been on my mind these few days, made the stoning useful at least:) thanks hwee:) after that yuxuan, xiaojia, huijin, kahsiong, weijie and I had lunch, before i discovered the thrills of a psp. haha crazy taxi is so fun i tell you. weijie kept laughing at me playing. after that it was just orientation all the way till 6 plus when i went home with jessie and kaikeng.

im so so so sleepy its only 9.50 but im going to bed. its going to be such a long day tmr, school then meeting, outing then suntec at 7 altogether! bye!

yours truly

like what my mum said, if its meant to be, a million people cant stop you. But if its not meant to be, you only need one person to thwart your plans. so there goes, person im talking about, because you're not gonna stop me!

first day in school! was better than i expected haha. bumped into lucas at the busstop so i had his as usual crazee company to walk into school. !! there were of course many lost and apprehensive faces around. a group of sc girls _____ into the canteen too, shall not use the adjective i want to since its not exactly flattering. just hope they dont get much of a "culture shock" people talk about! was exclaiming to vera "omogosh they look so blue! like clouds!" and vera was "yea you were once like that ok!". math was -_-. urrgh seriously, the time i spent trying to straighten my neck looking up since the table was so so low i could have spent that time to do like 2 more questions or something. grrr. but anyway, went with class to makan at jack's place after that (haha hwee!) and vera and i headed back to school, on a SECRET MISSION with phoebe and then joanna. haha! hwee couldnt because of tmr's paper. its ok, there's still friday! and saturday! and monday! ERHEM was fun because we could do a lot of undercover stuff until SOMEONE had to whacko my head and expose my identity. big boo.

well vera was also saying how she was really happy to be in vj, one of her reasons being other people in other schools dont seem to be as happy as her. HHA. for me its the same too, but only because the friends and lifestyle i now lead is so much more ME, if you know what i mean. haha lorraine knows! lorraine knows everything! quite scary, she understands every situation you describe and she gives very meaningful comments. ahh, she is a life guru! its so comforting talking to ll and ranting, even nonsense.

matthew and i will be mending cca booth tmr, hey do drop by ok! esp with your freshies:) im looking forward to combined assembly tmr too, hey freshmen, look forward too ok! you all are in the midst of what so many of us are missing sorely now!:/

P.S i have mastered whiney whiney! woots. haha

last post of 07

honestly, 07 was a great year. its not an exaggeration to say it may have possibly been the best year of my life so far.

i found myself walking through a tunnel, towards a light much brighter than the present,the future, with people surrounding me. those in front were the ones to lead me, those behind me were the ones to let me lead, and push me on if i faltered or stumbled, those at the side were those to support me whenever i needed it. there was the omnipresent Lord as well, my race-route setter, who was my leader, my pillars of strength, and my encourager. He was my left, my right, my front, my back. He was everything. Honestly, what a better way to put it than, Thank God.

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i find myself walking through a tunnel, towards a light much brighter than the present,the future, with people surrounding me. those in front are the ones to lead me, those behind me are the ones to let me lead, and push me on if i falter or stumble, those at the side are those to support me whenever i need it. there is the omnipresent Lord as well, my race-route setter, who is my leader, my pillars of strength, and my encourager. He is my left, my right, my front, my back. He is everything. Honestly, what a better way to put it than, Thank God.

2008 is going to be great. i can feel it in my bones.

love. meiyi

ho-ho-ho, here we go

hello world:)

i just got back from jac's house - MAHJONG! with like mama chicken, hweets and jacy:) haha okay its mahjong not MAHJONG! ok cause like if my parents see MAHJONG! they wont be too happy. haha. im in the i-love-the-world-and everything's-that-is-happening-mood now because things are really going great. dad helped alot by sending me up and down for the whole of today, that makes everything so much better esp in a rainy rainy season:) i worked on math for like 3 hours (!!) before receiving hwee's msg! hurrah! so dad and I took a drive to kensington park then we dinnered nearby then it was to jac's house. we played for like 4 hours till we were kinda groggy. but it was so fun!everyone, hwee shouted at jac's sister. tsk tsk tsk naughty hwee. then dad gave hwee and mc a lift home:) and on the way back my dad randomly started talking about toads. and suddenly we spotted a car which seriously looked like a toad. omgosh it was hilarious.

other highlights this week would be the band chalet at east coast and the Christmas gathering at my place:) we cycled so much and i was so slow i ended up cycling with dafril only (haha that makes him slow too) although like a million people were cycling/blading. danny (senior class) suddenly appeared next to me on his skates because he spotted me from somewhere else.managed to catch up with him quite a bit till we parted! ill never forget how nice an angel Danny was because he gave me super alot of gifts and thank goodness he was normal and nice and vj-ish haha:) Christmas dinner at my place was ...how should i put this... magical? my secret santa was Jac!!! hahaa yay. Photos!

hwee's all-time great muffins!!

we look like we're going for a picnic!

polaroids are a blast:)

Mum's chocolate cake which i love so:)
Merry Christmas everyone!:)

i wont say i havent had my share of low moments this holidays as well and its funny because even though the rest of my friends have their own very different set of lives, we all have troubles like that which are parallel in terms of its share of tears, headaches and worries... yet very good lessons learnt.:)

even though ill be studying for the next couple of days, im actually starting to panic because i realised i havent done alot of things an anxious j2 should be doing.. more than 2 months has become less than 2 weeks ><>

Something interesting for you:)

Anonymous: ay actually come to think of it, everyday's quite happening till Christmas Day itself- i like have nothing on on Christmas Day.

Me: haha me something like that.

i realised this is pretty common with everyone! funny!

when crazy takes on a new meaning

reverse this whole day please. =(

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the aftermath of NSSN and as usual after something you prepare for something and its over, your heart is heavy and you wake up feeling wasted. ok please tell me you feel the same sometimes. even though we suppered and i reached home feeling really tired and already a little sad, i still could not help but unpack my stuff and read all the letters and notes. This is nearly the best part of every concert i have because what people remember and say always impress me and make me laugh and you end up really happy:)

but i guess after i woke up today and went about life as usual, i realise there's been a hole somewhere somehow because of my lack of participation in other areas of my life. :( i quarrelled badly with someone and i cant take it anymore but stay away, honestly,this time i feel like i just want to not care about it anymore but things dont turn out right the more you do it this way. i havent had a serious argument since quite a long time ago, in fact i cant remember the last time any of this happened. im sincerely hoping time heals. this time round. ive reached the stage i rather not say anything to savage the situation, but trust me its not good. hiyah. i feel ive just hit the rock bottom of a good period of time and honestly, ive been wondering when this time would come.

i guess things have been too good for too long. but pray, pray and pray!

update

hello! i was supposed to come online not to blog but just to do other stuff, but i found that i just had to, if not ill just be lost in my own world. I believe that no matter how busy one is, its always important to reach out to your friends and not be submerged in your own world because you might never know, they may be more concerned than we think and we shouldnt keep that distance growing between us just because of differing hectic schedules.:) yay, i just convinced myself im not wasting time or anything:)

this week and the last part of last week have been absolutely crazy, i met up with class girls for dinner and then drinks but now i feel i havent met up with them for ages again! anyway, like what anthea says, what we really look forward to the start of school are the canteen sharing sessions! then it was section outing where i got sunburnt because we were cycling in the thick of the heat on a very sunny day. at night i went for Philwinds at Esplanade with the band peeps and i must say even though i was semi-dreading it and something else as well (haha phy), it turned out REALLY REALLY good, im so impressed with the pianist and things actually turned out beautifully.


we had such a lovely time and i met alot of ac friends i havent seen in years so we talked and reminisced. ahhh. anyway, i cant really remember what else i did because its been just so many things, dont worry i have it all written in my little book so that i remember how my holidays went. haha oh yes, christmas shopping! and hanging out quite alot with my mum and sister. yay:)

haha taken with my sister's new camera. yay.

besides all these news, i guess the most important will be that i have decided to lay off contacts for at least a month.:) so if you guys see me in spectacles, dont be surprised! and yes, i used to wear contacts. haha! this is what happened: I decided to stop usage of my hard/ RGP contacts (this helps to stabilize/reduce your degree of myopia) slightly more than a week back because my vision in the left eye was blur. I thought it was just that i didnt wash it properly throughout the months so i didnt think much about it. But i prayed about it yay Thank God and somehow my mum and I just felt i shouldnt wear it anymore but go see the optician. Thank God my mum also insisted i go to see her eye doctor for a super thorough 3 hour eye check as well just in case. so i went yesterday and hola, ive got this condition called GPC. It sounds damn gross and serious > Giant Papillary Conjunctivities, but luckily mine was discovered in a quite early stage. plus i stopped contact lens usage for more than a week already so its healing :) even though its safe to just stop usage for about 1 plus weeks more, i think ill play safe and not wear it for about 1 month more. yup the only setback is that my myopic level might increase more than usual since its not under control of the RGP lens. anyway, this condition is apparently quite common and is not really visible to yourself becauses its under the surface of your upper eyelid, and who flips their eyelids right, so yea be careful if you are a contact lens wearer!

ok lastly, jiayou to all vj band members! this is the last stretch, dont be discouraged even though __________. this is going to be the last few days we work with the sec 4s too, esp those who arent coming here to pursue your academic interests, we will miss you! haha all the best for this thurday's PAE and its really funny because i think im going to be as nervous as you all are when we all go to the comp labs to check hee.

ok FINALLY, come for NSSN! its going to be a sincere christmas token from all of us haha. contact me for more tickets!:)

love, meiyi!:)

1cm

today was so great because i woke up super early - 9.20. thanks to eric's money message. early but still late enough. thank goodness i managed to reach school at 9.55. haha! had a serious good laugh for skit prac. honestly, i love band now haha and i dont want to spend my time doing any other stuff (excluding religious things of course) ! what a pity i still have the rest of my life to live. haha okay thats a lie. i love life for now, just that i think im becoming more intolerant of people who irritate me etc. which is really bad, like i was telling char, i need to be more tolerant and gracious towards people im not that close to and try and empathise with them when they do certain things i cant comprehend. I was super high today with my spectacles haha because everyone kept calling me tai tai and copying my shift-specs-up action. beatrice was also high, she kept looking at me and laughing during rehearsal and so was benjamin, because he kept going about how i looked like someone i should not mention, since im under a bribe HAHA. and we kept talking and talking gosh i havent talked so much since... a few days ago. haha. had lunch and my table had like char, enghwee, furby, kaikeng and ziyang gosh we were so lame and sigh, im going to miss these times really!after band i left with annabelle to meet class girls at TOGi and yay finally we meet up:) had dessert then headed home with jac. hehe jac! oh tomorrow ants and xinlin are coming to my place for ECONS TUITION yes what a bummer but yea, i guess its really time to start!

and on friday im going cycling with percussion dears and then evening its off to the esplanande for Philwinds Concert. uhhum i dont know why but this is the first time im in the i-want-to-go-but-at-the-same-time-not-really mood for this friday evening. sigh. alot of reasons alot of history. i shall not go on.

anyway...
Christmas gathering at my place! im making the Turkey ah remember! 20th DEC! woots!

a meaningful week

i stole collages from anthea's and abc's blog respectively. pictures from our outing 2 weeks ago, which i didnt have time to blog about :))

on wednesday we had sectionals, warm ups lasted throughout, even though most of the time we girls were being trashed upside down by our dear section leader matthew, it didnt seem that meaningful during the thing itself, but after that it actually was. he said that even when playing simple semiquavers, we shouldnt look to the end of the phrase bar by bar (4 sets of semiquavers) a.k.a. playing horizontally, but we should be impartial to each and every single stroke and play vertically. in addition, words of wisdom from chiawen's blog: Busy-ness or amusement isn't the goal in life. It is doing what counts, one activity at a time.

i guess sometimes we are so caught up by whats at the end we live everyday not valuing it, its really not worth it and thats why "time passes so fast" because at the end of everything, we wonder what happened to all the time passed in the middle of the whole journey we took.

anyway, today was the stan chart marathon! im so grateful for His sustenance throughout because i had stitches (yes, unfortunately i did have) and quite bad ones actually which started quite early into the race. in addition, insufficient training + the heavy leg syndrome was down upon me today. extremely unlucky but i guess thats what made the whole race my own. jean and i were tested mentally and we were really thankful we made it:) we sprinted the last 100m to the FINISH line and then we smiled:))) i saw a couple of veejay photographers, not mark though, odacers!- jac and d, and phy who was the road marshall. i also saw sarah and lydia soo while running! oh yes and we met stef yee and valerie. hehe the adidas photographer also took a photo of me and jean so ill upload it here once they upload it! standard chartered is such a great experience and i'd love to join again next year, but it really depends on whether we can make it after our A levels!
christmas shopping yet again (okay today was my gazillionth day already i think) and i bought another new dress:) met aunt liz for lunch then headed for music class. saw mark leong, joel, aravind and gabriel ( i think) and a lot of random people.

im so tired now, but im so hyped up to do math. wow!