"You either make the right choice, or you make the choice right"

Hello

Firstly, congrats to pau, alyssa, and ac band friends.
for getting into cj, rj and ac respectively.

I never knew making choices could be so difficult.
this morning, at dawn (9 plus), VJ called. as i was still sleeping soundly, my mum talked to the person-in-charge for a while and got him to call back later.

well, I got into VJ.

but as you can see from my previous post (AC baby!), this wasnt going to be an easy decision.
after talking to the person-in- charge for about half an hour, i was like, "erm, so am i supposed to make my decision now?" and thank goodness he was like, "um, preferably, but i guess you can call back slightly later, you just have to be down at VJ by 12."
phew, that sounded easy, i mean, it was only 9.30.

after i put down the phone, i called like a million people and woke people out of their beds to "advice me". i made long distance calls to argentina even to ask my sister. finally. at the end of everything, i too knew it was ultimately my own decision.

Im going to miss every bit of AC that i know now, even though its just worth a few hours of AC memories, it was enough to stumble me in the decision making process. Im going to miss eating at crystal jade with weiting and chara, miss taking a bus and walking to ac, miss saying "good morning uncle!" to the security guard, miss feeling afraid of stepping into the band rehearsal place, miss meeting samuel for the first time, miss discovering all the dms and bms who were also in ac band, miss screwing up at warm ups, miss michelle (!!), miss percussion section people, present: michelle, samuel, wen long and absentees and miss percussion SL Kristen!!, miss sectionals and reading all the high grade scores for the first time, miss lunch at BK with michelle, wenlong, kenneth and someone else (sorry didnt manage to get your name), miss laughing at wen long as he wore the bk paper hat all the way back to ac, miss going back late, miss running from bus stop to the room, miss sneaking in from the back, miss introducing myself, miss feeling confused at Dr Lee's conducting, miss listening to all the theory stuff, miss wondering what on earth Dr Lee is talking about- pointing fingers at fellow section people of being in the acjc fight club (lol), miss playing all the songs, miss walking out with chara and planning our next outing. hmmmphh. its amazing how one gets attached to something so fast, so quick. i was actually rejoicing by the time i got home on God's decision to place me in the ever-so-not-expected Anglo-Chinese Junior College.

yea, then VJ had to accept me. hmmph. I cant say the exact reasons why i chose VJ either, because its just like that. things had to get worse when i was at AC to appeal OUT, i was at the AC office asking this teacher for directions, and he had to yell all the way to the other side of the office "ay, this one want to go out to VJ lei, how ah?" while the whole world around me was appealing IN. the lady also had to say to each and every one "you're really very lucky, boy/girl, 200 over appeals you know? only a handful can get in!". staring at each proud mother's beam upon their shining star, I was left to the nearly invisible queue that read [ TO APPEAL OUT].

I also had to meet two other AC band people Geraldine (is that your name?) and Jefri. they were looking excited, but were quite quiet when i told them I wasnt going to see them on saturday. -_- I was seriously wondering at that time "what do you think you are playing at, meiyi?!" Decisions are never easy, and sometimes made worse by the twists of fate.

Thank you seniors at AC especially for giving me such a rousing and encouraging welcome, thanks for not feeling pissed that i backed out. Thanks Kristen for not feeling dreadful even though you had just divided the parts out for each member ytd. Thank you!

surprising how such a simple decision can alter your life forever. like i was telling alyssa, its not that im regretting my decision of going to ac, its just the sad sad feeling? you know what i mean?
im not doubting VJ's possible fun-ness and success,

its just the feeling of wondering what would happen if you took the other path?